Bring on the emotions

Am I just going crazy or do people with CD have severe emotional issues? One health thing after another is coming up lately in my life. Crohn's is mild as of now. It seems my flare ups are sporatic  so I'm blessed in that department. However, my body hurts daily! I feel like I'm crippling. My knees hurt, my hip hurts, I'm always sore, & I just want to stay in bed to sleep.

I've had CBC tests and only shows high white blood count. I've had a UTI for 7 months. They checked my kidneys they are fine. However, there is 1 small spot on the left side of my bladder. ???? 

What hurts the most is my knees & right hip. I would love to dance. HECK, I would love to walk normal.  I'm not sure if that is why I get emotional and snap at times or if I'm just a loon. lol.. I mean, on a serious note I feel that my kids or husband will do something and I'll snap (just a stern voice actually yell). Then I look at them and say "What the heck?" "Sorry babies, Sorry hubby. That came out of no where. I'm just tense & my heart is racing."  I appologize and they are understanding (praise God). Is this something I need to get checked or should I just go to a massage therapist? I don't feel I'm bi polar cause I'm always laughing joking & having fun but am getting stressed easily now adays.

I just wonder if my mind is focusing more on my health than I realized & it's secretly stressing me. Now they are talking I MAY have endometriosis and if I take hormones I'll feel even more like a crazy.

Anyways.....I am new to the site and the only bright emotion is that I know i'm not alone. I am finding here that the symptoms I have are not all in my head or I'm not a hypochondriac.... They're the same as others on here.

 

Welcome to Healingwell by the way.
God bless you and your family. Hope days get better for us both.

And no, I doubt your crazy.
If you need to ask yourself.... Your probably not crazy :D

I have thought of seeing a therapist. This tension or stressed issues have just recently started. No I don't want it to ever get to where "I'm sorry" is not enough. At this time I don't see that ever happening. However, I didn't see me having the health issues I now have either. I just feel the emotions are over running me and I let my family know in advance that it is NOT them and if I snap at them I have no right and they know I love them. They also know how I have treated them with respect, love, & care for all the years past but have seen how the last few weeks I have emotional trigger moments.

My kids are my medicine. They sit with me and say "It's ok momma. You love us. We love you. Do you want to play a game?" and of course it's play time and we have fun. All is over. It always ALWAYS calms me. Even if we don't have time at that moment for fun time. It's just their little voice with such innocense that makes me realize. "You're being a booger head momma, chill out."

This is just awesome to read/hear responses to help guide each other along. I have researched off & on for 3 years now on Crohn's but have been on this site for just a few hours and have learned a great deal more.

I had no idea there could be knee/hip/joint issues, mental issues, or any other issues associated with Crohn's. I was just narrow minded at only the digestive system. I literally only visioned mouth to anus. Just trying to take "mental note" of everything I read and write down this and that to ask my doc. WOW I just saw him yesterday and already have a list.

Oh the emotional issues with Crohns!!! I have had this darn disease for nearly 35 years, and about 3 years ago I developed the worst anxiety related to it. But thru the help of therapy and the occasional Xanax I am in better control of it. I only use my Xanax now about 1-3 times a month. But if my Crohns is acting up, I will tell you my anxiety likes to add to the party too. As for the joint issues, I once had a Rheumatologist tell me that joint pain is often a precursor to a flare. But....many of us suffer with Osteoarthritis and other joint issues with our Crohns too. I have osteoarthritis really bad in my knees, and will in fact, be having a total knee replacement soon. I think the steroids we have to take, do alot of damage to our bones. Oh, and let me welcome you to Healingwell too. Glad to have you with us, and ask any questions you might have, one of our great members is sure to have an answer for you. Hugs!

I would like to also extend a warm welcome to you....i also suffer with anxiety and a few other issues..Navy said it well about there will come a time when your words ..im sorry babes..just will not work or be enough i know this from firsthand experience with my 17 yr old daughter..cait has been fantastic but my lack of hearing n emotional/physical well being is def taking a toll on her.....i am doing tons better than i was a few mths ago but still hv ways to go..we are here for you ..tell your sweet kids to go play have fun n be kids mommy is gonna be fine...they need to know that you the centre of their universe is still in charge imho..im not trying to be mean nor rude just letting you know what can happen....lyn

Sometimes I think the fear, anxiety and loss of control over my own body/my own fate is the worst part of the disease. It's simply a battle we cannot win or reason our way out of. Forgiving myself for the "downs" that come with struggling with chronic illness is difficult...but it also helps to remind myself that the other "healthly" adults around me don't seem to suffer from being overly perfect in the mental health area either.

I don't have children, but I have nieces that I'm close to - and I agree that the love of a child (or young adults they turn into) is absolutely the best medicine of all. A few minutes with them even on the phone can turn the worst day around.

Dealing with the way chronic illness changes your life is as hard as dealing with the disease. The first few years are definitely the hardest. After a time, you adjust to the roller coaster ride. My experience with Crohn's (and later asthma, bronchiectasis and constant respiratory infections from Remicade or Humira) is much like yours - one thing after another. Today it's hip pain - earlier in the week it was diarrhea and pain keeping me up all night. It's always something.

Over time, I think I've sorted integrated this "diseased" part of myself into my life as best I can. Once you've accepted it, it gets a little easier and it will translate into how you handle your relationships.

As much as I abhor this disease (and boy, do I ever) and how it's required me to change parts of my life to cope, I honestly think that in some ways, it's helped shape me into a better person. It's made me more empathetic. I can feel the pain of others acutely when I've experienced so much of it myself.

It sounds to me like you are handling all this really well. Being open about how you're feeling with those closest to you is key. We have a disease that most of us wear only on the inside. Don't make the ones you love guess - if you tell them you're fine, they'll believe you. The words and the actions must agree - when they do, they'll understand.