Sick and Tired of my legs aching and depressed and over life

hiiiii all

well its another bad day with my leg pain. im in remission after 2 months of taking humira but with one thing getting fixed another problem starts.

my legs ache everyday and im sik of it. i take pain killers for the pain and my husband massages me with pure olive oil to relax me but its to much to handle.

i feel so down knowing another month has passed and im still not pregnant. :( i just started elevit to boost my body but its my weight that concerns me. as i got diagnosed with crohns at 16 but had it since 15 my body didnt develop much and im underweight. i weigh 4 kilos now and im not allowed to go on medication to put on weight.

another thing that crushes me is that i feel pregnant 2 years ago to my husband (was my boyfriend back then) after i had my resection. but had a abortion due to serious family problems . sometyms i think im getting punished for having the abortion and im never going to have the blessing of the baby i dream of almost every night.

i cry everyday wondering why?? why cant i have a painless day and be fit enough to have a baby.

i dont want to wait till i have a resection to try to fall pregnant as alot of women have to much scar tissue and cant or something could go wrong then there goes my chance.

life sux sometyms but today im really over it.

ebru 

hi celey.
ive always wanted kids at a young age and ive been married for a year now so i think its not early at all.

i dont think im obsessing i dont control my dreams at night. its just deppresing having such a low weight and not being able to put any on to support a healthy baby.

i dont work and my husband supports me he has a great job with a great income and im on a benifit from welfare for my sikness. so money isent a issue.

my legs are hurting from the medicine but otherwise im ok and the painkillers are a alternative if pain gets to much and if i do fall pregnant i will get off them.

I'm sorry... I wasn't trying to make you feel bad... I was just very concerned... I'm struggling with weight issues as well... so if you would like some weight-gain tips... maybe I can help you out... *Is hoping to put on 20 pounds myself*

I wasn't trying to question your marriage or anything of the sort... I was saying that you... yourself... are young.... 18 years old is just out of high school... 21 years old is 3 years after that...

It's really not enough time to get a feel for the world, you know? Like I said... I'm 21 right now... I'm going on 22... and it just seems... rushed to me... Granted, I realize that many people have gotten pregnant at ridiculous ages.... 15, 16... sometimes even younger...

The reason I offer a word of caution is because.... many of the female adults in my family have been... hasty... in their decisions to have a baby... and now, they live a very difficult and hard life... And they don't even have Crohn's... which is bound to make things even more difficult...

But like I said... This is your decision...

I still think going to the therapist would be a good idea.... I go to one myself... For people like us... That have Crohn's... it can be a very difficult disease to live with.... and sometimes, we need extra support...

That's all I was trying to say... and I'm sorry if I offended you... it wasn't my intention at all...

Lots of different things... First, couple of things... and one is pretty new for me..

I usually buy nutrition drinks and drink one every day.... A nutrition drink, as it implies, is very nutritious... and clocks in about 350 calories, as much as calories as one whole meal... So, it can be very helpful... I drink Ensure or the off-brand of Ensure...

Another thing... is another drink... and if you can't find a nutrition drink that you like, maybe you'll find this more palatable.... There's this vegetable-fruit juice drink (it comes in different flavors, and it's a lot tastier than it sounds... especially the Peach Mango flavor)... V8 Fusion... One whole bottle gives you a full serving of fruit and a full serving of veggies... so, it's very healthy...

And... as an added bonus... Drinking one bottle a day clocks in about 600 calories (there's about 100 calories per serving... and I can't remember what the serving size is... but the whole bottle is round about 600 calories)...

That's one of the most important things about trying to gain weight... At least, from what I've gathered from a dietician I've talked to... You need to get in your full amount of calories... 2,000 a day... And you'd be surprised how easy it is to miss calories...

I've found out that... on a general basis.... I get in half the calories that I need.... 1,000... so, what I'm doing now is trying to keep better track of what I'm getting in, so that I get my full 2000...

Look for a website called My Calorie Counter.... it's a free website that offers a means to keep track of your calories... It's a little difficult to figure out at first... but it is very helpful...

Given that your legs have been bothering you right now, you might wanna hold off on this next piece of advice...

It's commonly known that muscle weighs more than fat... So, once you make sure you're getting in 2000 calories a day... the next thing to do is start on a diet that's higher in protein... Protein helps to build muscle... And then, you need to start exercising... weight lifting is especially conducive to building muscle...

The good thing about that is muscle is a lot harder to lose than fat... So, if you get into a bad situation with your Crohn's, you'll have that muscle to rely on to keep you stable...

So... Yeah... That's what I've been doing... Hope that helps... :)

I am also wondering if you might want to think about an ANA test? Since I had the lupus like syndrome that you can get from the A-TNF I wonder about it in others?

Ice Cream,
If it is a concern you might want to think about seeing a ryhmie (it is a series of tests for the lupus like syndrome). Both Ides and I have had this issue. Basically it feels like trying to walk thru chest deep snow (I generally add in after your feet have been beaten). It is that kind of pain and effort just to be able to move.
Take Care,
Navy

I noticed you're on Humira, Ebrukilic. I'm on Cimzia and experienced the same awful pain in my leg muscles. I've read where others on Humira also experienced the same leg pain. I was able to adjust my dosage of Cimzia and alleviate the side effects while still controlling the Crohn's. Just a thought.

I understand that intense yearning for a child as far back as a teenager. I even married a guy when I was 23 just because I felt he would be a good father. Luckily I didn't get pregnant by him, altho we tried! I later remarried and immediately was able to have 2 wonderful children at the age of 30 and 32. That was 22 yrs ago and they are the joy of my life, but I didn't have Crohn's then. I was diagnosed 8 yrs ago with Crohn's and could not imagine being able to take care of babies and manage my Crohn's. For me, Crohn's has been a full time job.

It's very possible that the reason you aren't pregnant is just your body telling you that it's not ready to be pregnant. Why not just concentrate on getting healthy right now, and once you gain weight and feel more stable then move on to getting pregnant. Don't mean to judge, just my opinion...