A Nanner's vent

Nanners, it was good to see you vent. You have given so much support to myself and others, that I sometimes worry you are doing too much.

Thank you all so much for letting me vent, and to the many of you who spoke about how you feel the same. I guess we really need to get that out once in awhile. Its good for me to hear that what I am feeling is not unique to me.

I have one bill and that is my truck payment. I have about 3 yrs left until it is paid off. My goal, God willing, is to work for a couple of more years then go ahead and proceed with disability. I know the time is quickly approaching. Life is getting to be a bit more of a struggle now.

I also think because of my 2 week battle with bronchitis, that has contributed to my misery. I have been to the doc 3 times and every singel thing they have given me from antibiotics, inhalers, nose drops and cough meds have all upset my stomach to the point I HAD to stop these meds. I have found a Mexican cough med that works, but I can't take more than one dose a night or it too will upset my stomach. I hate how sissy of a stomach I have. Gets upset VERY easily.

Also, I am having some new pain of late. I am sure many of you longtimers with CD can understand, when something new hits you start getting a little anxious and down. This pain is in my upper right rib cage area and can sometimes go into my side and back. I no longer have a gallbladder so I know its not that. This is a new type of pain and I really don't know what it is. Adhesions, a hernia or something else????

I get a feeling like something slowly contracts and goes into a tight painful knot. The ladies might understand this, but its sorta like a braxton hicks contraction but it is one small area, not my whole stomach. It slowly increases till it gets into a tight knot. I can put my heating pad on it and it will go down again in about 5 min. But it does smart some when it does that. The night before last it did it like 10 times in a row.

I have right now a dull ache in my right rib cage area just to the right of the center of my ribs. And my back hurts directly behind this painful area. My husband keeps telling me to go to the docs, but I just don't want to find out something else is wrong. So until my pain meds don't help it, I will just keep an eye on things.

Thanks again for all your kind words, and thanks to this forum for letting get that all out. Hugs!

Nanners,

I am right here for you and will be emailing you later today.

I hear you my friend.  With a husband who has Crohn's I understand your feelings as I see him go through so much.

As you know my biggest problem is dealing with my own depression and right now " I Cry Alone" - wish I could write that book.

Great vent and know you are just awesome - no guilt ever.  You did not ask for this disease nor did anyone else here.

Later and Love to you,

Kitt

Thank you all so much for allowing me to get that off my chest. I do feel better for talking about it. I have decided to be more open with my docs. I tend to think "I am not that bad, I shouldn't complain", when I really should be more honest with them.

Day to day life is getting harder as I get older (grrr) and I do think its closer to the time for me to start taking more consideration for me. Quit trying to be the strong one, and allow my self to recognize that I am not healthy, I am sick.

So thank you all again for listening to me. And thank you Peter Waite for creating these forums for us to talk to and lean on eachother. Giant hugs and much love to you all!

I can't tell you how many days I have had such similar feelings.  Heart goes out to you!

Thanks Zanne!! This is one time I hope I am not so much your CD twin:) :)

Although I have something trying to give me grief. Can't figure out if its adhesions or what. Will be watching it for a bit and if it continues will surely see the doc. Hugs!