Anyone else look like crap?

Ha. I laugh but it isnt so funny. I find I looked like crap most of my life on a good day im like that episode of Seinfeld the two face episode of the girl Jerry dates and can only take to one part of a certain coffee shop cause its the only light she looks nice in lol. But right now im in extra rough shape. I dont know how much I weigh though I had a deal with my nurse not to tell me. I'm 5'11 male and my normal weight when im good only about 150-155. Once I went up to 165 or so that was wierd. I'm def a lot less than 155 right now. I can tell just by looking it sickens me ive lost so much weight. Also anemic im gonna get a number they never tell me the number I never ask im just like whatever. One lady at work like every other day lets me know im looking like extra crap than usual for the last few months. I snapped at her the last time. She said she just worries about me, I said take that worry beyond commenting continuously on crappy I look. For now just say Hey Andrew, how are you? Any plans for the weekend etc. Maybe just try being a friend not someone who I need to remind me I look horrible and that would help me and then you could worry less especially where you know why I look horrible or more horrible than usual or whatever. Ugh. Im starting an anti depressant on the 27th again cause i'm just really frustrated and find it hard to want to go anywhere or do anything when people are like oh he looks like hell. Blah.

Awww cupcakespinkgal. I know. I get the man your skinny a lot as well. Im like do you go up to people and say man your fat? ha. MAN! people. Your right though is what I wanted to get at I feel like you feel with the thinness. Good luck with the weight gain glad your feeling better at least, I feel slightly better as well which makes it even more frustrating. Though im on the decline with each 5mg drop of prednisone it seems. Also btw im totally going on wellbutrin hehe. I have tryed a lot of anti depressants and have opted for this one to aid in quit smoking as well, maybe help the guts and get my mind in a better place. I'm looking forward to it.

Post Edited (sooper) : 6/18/2011 6:47:40 PM (GMT-6)

Hehe Sniper.

I know exactly how you feel. I went from weighing 135-140 to 107 in a couple months. And every time I went around someone they would always feel the need to tell me how skinny I was getting as if I didn't already know. I never wanted to go anywhere or be around anyone. I just stayed in the house as much as possible. None of my clothes fit so I had to buy new ones. Its very stressful. It would probably help if people were more understanding and chose there words carefully.

Sooper, I always think the exact same thing when people talk about how thin I am. I always think, if I was 50 pounds overweight, you wouldn't say right to my face, wow, you are so fat! I have had people say, You are so lucky, you can eat anything and not gain a pound. They don't realize, no I can't eat anything and I would gladly be a little chubby if I could feel great and eat whatever whenever!

Good luck on the Wellbutrin! It has definitely helped me, still a slow road but the longer I am on it the more I can tell my inflammation is going down. When I started it, my body temp was still rising to at least 100 degrees by late afternoon, now I am back to normal body temp.

And remember the regular Wellbutrin is what has been proven to help more. For some reason the extended release and sustained release don't seem to have quite the same effect. Not sure if you saw the old post with that info.

I feel I look like crap too. The skin is hanging of me, especially the tops of my arms and legs. I know
I'm 60, BUT, my wrinkles have wrinkles and I don't think it's fair that I look older than I should
because of weight loss and general ill health!! BUT there ain't nothing I can do about it, sooo I'm
trying to grin and bear it, not easy, but I'm trying.

It's hard growing old, but even harder trying to do it with crohns, chronic pancreatitis and lupus.
Ha, at least I'm still here to b**** about it. LOL

I looked like crap and still look somewhat crapty but it's gotten better, still under my ideal weight though. Ffs, image matters a lot since I used to be a part time trainer, minoring in acting and since I perform/sing on special occasions like at a coffee house. I fear flare ups and eating healthy seems to be the only way for me to gain weight. But I love junk food...

Hey, I feel everyones pain I am 60 old male 5.09
Weigh 128, had a bad flare a yearcago got down to 114
Kind a weird when I came out of flare I started eating better got
Back to 135
I just can't seem to hold above 130 for long. Everyone I see says the
Wind is going to blow me a way, or some thing smart about being
So skinny.
Tigerpawn
No surgeries yet
Asacol 3x a day

I look like crap. I have become the poster child (actually senior citizen) for prednisone. Since being put on it in January, I have gained 20 pounds, have to wear compression socks, have lost half my hair, and have such a big moon face, that I could quality as a lunar eclipse when someone walks past me. I look in the mirror and don't recognize myself anymore. It is so depressing. Thank God I only have one mirror in the house!

hey sooper....im 35 and 6 feet tall and 165 at my best weight, skinny but all muscle. since i had my crohns diagnosis i dropped to 140 and am stuck there now. i look weak and frail..i work for a utililty co in chicago and every day people tell me "wow did you lose weight" and "you dont look so good, you better start taking care of yourself" My career is very physical and demanding on my body and i need to be in shape....since losing all this weight having all these problems im becoming hopeless and feeling the blues alot of the time too...but we all must remember we are very sick and for some of us its gonna get worse before we get better, at least for me. I just try to find the things that make me happy..ive been isolating alot. try to enjoy the times you feel good and take advantage of them. cause you never now when you might hit a low point and be with the disease...day by day dont project to days ahead you cant control.....peace

Ain't that the truth LOL

He He, this is just what I needed to read, and hey Sooper, thanks for the quote.

"I'm becoming less defined, as days go by. Fading away, well you might say im losing the focus. Kinda drifting into the abstract in terms of how I see myself."

I remember seeing them in concert when I was **healthy** in remission, and feeling so Strong and Well. What a good memory. Also, I used to work out, and that was one of my favorite workout songs to listen to.

Now I'm very old. OK, I'm actually 50, but physically I feel about 101 yrs old, can't move. I am at an OK weight now (after going UP with the pred, and down after doing scd for 8 weeks) This disease really messes with you on so many levels. I have to struggle so much to get the energy to get up and out the door to work, that I never bother to fix myself up much... sigh. I'm too exhausted. And even when I do fix myself up, it really doesn't work anymore! I don't have any mean people saying too much, though it really pisses me off when people say "but you look so well" . I don't look well, I look like hell. I have aged about a decade in the last 18 months. That's just in the looks department. In the physical feeling department, I have aged about 40 yrs, and can't even walk right anymore, due to arthritis and peripheral neuropathy. And this is BETTER than it was a year ago. Sorry, I'm ranting, but these posts really touched a cord with me. I'd better sign off, but glad I am not alone with this. (Guess I'm bitter.) But reading others and thinking about my own struggles in this area did make me laugh.

NDBC
Crohn's since 2000, in 2nd major flare, flaring since Dec 2009. Fistula, arthritis, peripheral neuropathy. On 6MP, Tacrolimus, Celebrex, Lyrica.

NDBC - Nice to see someone pick up on that and enjoyed it! So jealous you got to see NIN live!! NIN is my #1. Love them. I'm 30 myself. Always said I was gonna go see NIN somewhere but then Trent packed NIN in at least as a touring band, there have been rumors he is working on a new album for NIN but I havnt seen much surface about that recently.

Dont be sorry for ranting! Thats what this post is for! Rant away!!!! Any subject for that matter. Thread jack do whatever you want in my threads lol... that is allowed by the mods at least : ) There are a lot of us in the same bout mate!