Depressed...why does my body hate me?

So I've been slowly tapering off prednisolone after my most recent flare up. Getting slowly better, I've started to try and vary my diet a bit - after 2 months on strict low residue I am so so so craving some fruit and vegetables!

But my body just rejects everything. I had some sweet potato and peas with dinner on Thursday, turns out this was a big mistake. I had 6 BMs on Friday and 6 already today (it's only 3pm in the UK), all with blood.

I am SO FED UP. I just want to eat some food! Something that isn't chicken, bread or fish! I feel like my whole life revolves around caring for my body and it just rejects everything. I spend hours at the doctor's, I give it all these drugs, I try so hard with food to eat what I can and my digestive system will just turn around and go 'hah! Think that will stop me? Oh no...'

And then I spend 4 hours the next day in the bathroom.

Does anyone else get this? I feel so disconnected from myself. Like, why can't my body just STOP and BEHAVE and do what I want to it to do? I just want to be a normal 25 year old. I want to go and be able to have dinner with my boyfriend and not be petrified. I want to be able to go shopping with my friends without being worried about being more than 6 ft from a toilet. I want to be able to drink wine!

Ugh...sorry for the rant. Just a bad few days when I felt I was finally getting better :(

So sorry you are feeling so rough. This disease does get you down doesn't it??? I had a partial obstruction last month and the battle to get back to feeling better has been heck! I think the peas were the culprit that made you sick. They have peels and seeds and tend to irritate us. I think the sweet potato was okay, as most of us tolerate potatoes pretty well. I hope things quiet down for you soon. Hugs!

PS I stay on a low residue diet (modified) all the time as it works best for me. Maybe thats the diet for you too. Hugs!

Hi Sovawanea! I can really relate to your post. I have had it rough too, just like you, but things seem to be better now. It's hard to be young, and maybe look fine and healthy on the outside, but be living with so many restrictions. It's hard when we want to be carefree, and just live a normal young person's life.

Have you tried fish oil? It's supposed to help with everything.
According to a study published in the New England Journal of Medicine, fish oil was shown to be effective in reducing the rate of relapses in Crohns patients. Over twice the number of patients given fish oil remained in remission after one year compared to the placebo group.
Their research concluded that the essential fatty acids found in fish oil, namely EPA and DHA, could help reduce inflammation in Crohns patients.

There has been so much positive research on fish oil and Omega 3 fatty acids that none other than the FDA has recommended incorporating it into our diets.

Although you can get essential omega 3 fatty acids from eating cold water fish such as salmon and cod, due to poor manufacturing and handling practices many of the nutrients in these fish are depleted by the time they arrive at market.

That's why a high quality fish oil supplement might be a better option, as you can be sure you are getting the essential Omega 3 fatty acids in their purest form.

Thanks all for your kind words. My boyfriend is very supportive and understanding, but he doesn't know exactly how I feel as he's obviously never been through this. Maybe it sounds strange but actually it's really reassuring to know that I'm not 'weird' - there are loads of other people for whom this is a totally normal state of being. It can be really hard being the only Crohnsie around, especially at work (trying to explain that the disease changes, and what used to be okay now isn't, is very hard...and I tend to give up after a while). It's nice to know that there are a lot of other people just like me.

chicaalbita - I hadn't heard that about Omega 3. I do try and eat a lot of oily fish/eggs (if nothing else because that's all the protein I can take!) but I hadn't thought about a supplement. I think I'll add it in to my regimen and see what happens; it certainly can't hurt.
Again it's good to know that I'm not the only one. I don't know if you can drink or not but the number of times I've had to explain to people that I can't, and then they say 'surely one can't hurt' and try and pressure you into it! I know they're just trying to be fun but it can be aggravating as it just makes me feel like I'm missing out even more :( I really love wine & champagne and it makes me so sad that I can't have it.

this-to-shall-pass - I'm like that with fat. I can't stomach it at all. My boyfriend had cooked the sweet potato with a lot of olive oil, which he only told me after I'd eaten it! I gave him a bit of a haranguing, he just hadn't thought about how the oil might affect me. Poor him, he was only trying to make me a nice dinner.