Suffer of crohn's

Hi everyone who suffer from crohn's same as me,my name is Irene,when I was 22 year old I have anue fistula and op for 3 times I took 3 year to recover from it,after recover I start to work but unfortunate I start to keep diarrhea and totally can't eat n drink my body became weak n thin my weight 45 kg drop to 33 kg also no period for 4 years and I went to hospital to see dr,but dr also Donno wat kind sickness, so I went many hospital to see finally I meet one good dr who tell me I have crohns when I hear tat I was shock y is me and y just Chinese gal only me, really tink to end my life but I have mother to take care, so continues to follow up with my dr Ng he is a very good dr at tat time I take azathprine pentasa steroid fold acid n vitamin d after few years in 2006 my crohns flare up the pain is really suffer no body noe the feeling of tat I remember tat day is Christmas eve when I was celebrate with my niece we starting to eat the thing happen I take a piece of cake and eat but all vomit even water also throw out then start to pain at tat time I remember my stoma inside going to burst up so my family send to hospital dr check on me and say u need to op now if delay will blust so I sign to op after tat I get well in few mths I tot after op ald cure I did not noe in 2007 end year flare up so dr gv me remicade once a mth so I jab for 3 times I stop bcos can't afford also transfer to gov hospital, they get me new dr ang I told him every thing but he seen like not really care n listen to me, when admitted in thr he ask me nil by mouth for one week then arrange me to do camera scope to see inside so result is flare up he order medi to eat is same as everyday I took n jab hydrocortisone every 4 hrs after a week no pain and discharge me few year later 2012 i can't pass motion n start pain day by day the pain get more serious so I admitted again, but this time very suffer than before, first day in they nvr do anything second day dr ang come say arrange ct scan third day go ct scan say can't see forth day gv medi to clear bowel till bleeding dr nvr care dr arrange scan again then x ray blood test coloscopy endoscopy MRI n many many but still say can't see everydays keep gv diarrhea medi eat diarrhea till skin broken n infection still keep give to diarrhea nvr on drip and one day finish do the scan Donno wat name also cheat by dr cos he lie to me just normal scan but when go thr they say need put thing from my nose to bowel by tat time I was scare feel to cry cos no ppl tell me tat I have to do and already clear bowel till bleeding if don do I waste my time here so I do after do go back wards I feel tiredness restless giddy n weak blur so slp whole days untill wake up, they take blood go test say my potassium drop Bp drop n fever after give me answer is can't find the pain from whr n ask discharge tat few days can't go toilet even take medi so dr say discharge me bk home take medi n rest, now at home still feel the same giddy tired restless n breathless weak so can anyone tell me shall I ask dr to gv humira or remicade jab to me n try I still on azathprine steroid m vitamin d tat all thank to listen my story hope anyone can help me n give me suggestion

Dr nvr let me use remicade Donno why b4 is anther dr use on me, so next month I go check up should I ask dr to change medi to humira what if dr reject or say I still no need tat yet , everyday I still have pain even pain killer pill can't help the pain killer is oxynorm anther is OxyContin

Yes already got addicted one over timing nvr take the oxy my body start shiving cold and like a a lot worm inside body just afraid my doc insist don wan let use remicade or humira what should I do, my English not good scare Donno how to say,what if doctor say my condition still no need use tat how?

With crohns isn't will feel stomach like very very full don feel to eat and a lot gas inside also can't let gas out sometimes inside got sound and like boiling water today when I walk my right leg vein pull very tied very hard to walk after this time my appetite lose then when drink or eat like can't go down inside my heart when drink feel like have stone inside so drink some water see can solve but very pain and slowly go down stomach rencely feel very tired sleepy breathless back pain heartburn can anyone teach me and tell me what is all this ? Are my crohns getting serious ? Thks to everyone who help me I m grateful to u