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Posted 1/23/2013 4:45 AM (GMT 0)
Just need to vent.  I have been feeling so at a loss these last few months.  It is such a struggle to get out of bed or put a smile on my face or even care.  I am so tired of feeling like crap.  Have had some med changes recently and alot of new and recurring medical crap come up.  My doc says I am the most put together crohns patient he has seen and yet I can't see how he sees that.  I certainly don't feel that way.  Just want to cry all the time.  Never want to talk to anyone or socialize.  I think if it were not for my daughter and family that I would just give up.  They are the only thing holding me down right now.  I am sorry if this is all so depressing and wallowing-ish.  Just needed to tell someone these feelings cause not many people around here would actually understand.  And right now I don't need the "oh I know, I'm sorry" bit from anyone who doesn't really know. Thank god for my family or I would just check out now and be done with it all.

Thanks for listening...

Posted 1/23/2013 5:57 AM (GMT 0)
Hi Mojo - I know the feeling and I am in it too..... it sucks doesn't it. I feel the same 'blah' as you. I've just started flaring again (only 6 months in remission) and it just feels so depressing when you know what's coming your way (worse pain, bathroom trips, more tired etc etc). I agree if it wasn't for my daughter, mom, husband i would check out as well. Sometimes you get tired of being positive and putting on the happy face. I've also had to put work on hold (my GI and GP both reccomended it) because I work in a hospital and Nowalk, Cdiff etc. is so rampant. I just want to be 'normal'. Having said that here is something that may help.... I have this saying hanging on a plaque in my kitchen. It also has other meanings to me, but I find it relates to anything in life.....................
God, Grant me the Serenity
To accept the things I cannot Change
The Courage to change the things I CAN
And the Wisdom to know the Difference

I've also started looking at things I can do to get out of this rut. I've become more active on this board, which helps because I don't feel so lonely having this disease (my family is amazing, but it's also great to talk to people who have it). I think you and I are ''sick and tired of being sick and tired'' dontcha think!!! I hoped I have helped a little - sometimes knowing your not the only one going through something helps, and I am right there with ya sistah!
Posted 1/23/2013 6:23 AM (GMT 0)
Omg! You don't know how right on the money your reply is! That is one of my favorite sayings. I told this to my aunt one day and she found a bookmark in a library book the very next day that had that saying on it! She gave it to me and so since I do read daily i see it daily. Thank you, so much for giving me the reminder to keep reading it.
Posted 1/23/2013 6:12 PM (GMT 0)
Hi there mojowo,
I will say this about being sorry, I am sorry to hear that you're feeling down and out.
Many of us have been there, are there and it can be often with this disease. As Carrie said, ''sick and tired of being sick and tired'." Definitely hear that and understand.

I hope you feel better very soon and take advantage of the family support system that you have. That is a blessing in itself, not everyone can say that or possesses that family support system.
Posted 1/23/2013 6:48 PM (GMT 0)
Here's a big <<<<HUG>>>> for both of you ladies. Think ahead to the good times and try not to focus on the now. This too will pass.
Posted 1/23/2013 7:26 PM (GMT 0)
Thanks to all. Some days just worse than others and I was having a good ole pity party last night. I do feel better today!
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