Finding The "Good" in Those Days That May Help Us .......Or WILL Help US

By the way,,another good thing in my life is,,,,Lyn

Thanks to both of you
YOU"S are the bestest thing GOOD I have in my life.........

AS well as HW and the friends I have met here..........

I am so proud to call you both my friends

Thanks so much again

LUVS
LYN

I agree it is a GREAT thread

The GOOD I have today is cait comes home from Vancouver
Miss her so much cannot wait to see and huggle her

Also bought a Roy Orbison CD and Neil Diamond........YEP I am old.....n luv it
Wanted to BOOGIE till I dropped and believe me I woulda dropped lol

There is SO much GOOD in our lives plz share yours
It is inspiring to others I am sure

LYN

Thanks

I definitely WILL let you all know
Have no fear I am not going into anything w/o my HW family with me in Spirit
They are my GOOD.......

Thanks again
Lyn

LOOK for something each day

Just ONE thing and I am sure you will find ONE

Please do share..........

If you care too...........LYN         "Spinny Lyny"LOL

Cait is having some eating issues and depression but her grades are still in the honors

Me thinks she has too many teachers that put her way up doing things a higher grade should do

Thanks Gail........

I had been having the chemo and finally they had to take a chunk outta left lower lobe
Big chunk

BUT thats my GOOD

I am alive and I am happy to be so even with all that is thrown our ways

Take care my friend

I have to think really, really hard to remember any days in my life that have not included laughter, or some comment, look or action that prompted a smile.

Even the day my daughter died, I remember the sound of Sarah's laughter -- that chuckle that begins as a rumble in the belly and gurgles up through the chest to erupt through lips split in wide in air-gasping laughter that crinkles the eyes into slits and shakes the whole body. It was the last sounds she made before falling into a sleep from which she never awakened.

Three short days later, on the day of her funeral, the blackest day of my life, one of my enduring memories is gasping for air myself in gales of laughter as one of my relatives told me I might have some explaining to do with a neighbor.

She had come to the door to pay her respects and bring some muffins, at the very moment the bells were tolling at the church. She was confronted with the earsplitting sound of music and the sight of kids whooping and dancing and beating on drums as they marched through the dining room, with not an adult to be seen. My house was the daycare for all the family's kids and kids, being kids, they had no sense of the solemnity of the occasion. They just knew this gathering of cousins was an occasion that called for great fun and mayhem.

My relative had retreated to the second floor and only realized we had a visitor, when my five year old knocked on the door to tell him of the visit. The neighbor, taking one look at the mayhem had shoved the plate of muffins into my daughter's arms and bolted back down the steps.

Even though torn by grief, and with a sense of self-loathing (how could I laugh at a time like that!) it felt so good. Stoic that I am, I had sat tearless through the eulogy (written by my husband), determined not to give in to my emotions in case I caused my family more distress. And in that moment of laughter (which did turn to tears) I felt such a rush of energy, a release of repressed emotion. It was healthy. I felt alive!!

To this day I smile when I imagine what that dear older lady must have thought. And it reaffirms that the job of all of us who are lucky enough to be alive, is to live!

Today, I am grateful that I have learned to be kind to myself. Instead of dragging myself to a three-hour yoga workshop, instead I'm cuddled in blankets letting my cold have its way with me, instead of forcing myself to be productive.

I am oh, so grateful, that my husband (who is covering the prime minister's visit to our riding today for the paper he edits) will have stories that make me laugh when he comes home.

I am grateful that tomorrow my mom will celebrate her 92 birthday and that she remains healthy, active and living independent in her own home.

And the sun is shining and that means one more day that I won't have to turn on my oil-fired furnace!

Thanks Lynn for your spirit and your generosity in sharing so much with all of us at Healing Well.

Lyn I have obviously come to this post really late and did not realize what you have been going through. What a challenge to be facing, and of course you worry most about the impact on your loved ones. Isn't that just like us? Still, you really do need somewhere safe for you to vent too. I hope your friend provided the opportunity for tears as well as laughter.

Hugs from the heart.

Thanks Bellenstein........Yes I was crying laughing and all of it
Was in a severe defuntion mode and depression believe me
And yes Kitt ( lil sis ) and many others gave me the strength to get thru
Sniper and what he and his wife has and continue to face daily yet he always has time to make someone or everyone laugh ya know...........lol
THanks for your support
it means so much to me...Luvs.....LYN



Gail.....Yes I do know
I was anorexic to a point I believe but with me it was
stressing out and I would go days w/o eating only drinking Ginger ale not even water.......
DO NOT recommend this for anyone
Went to 88 lbs
Doc threatened to Tube feed me
I started eating real quick ...Like TOUT SUITE....
I was eating the highest calories a day poosible w/o making me want to vomit lol
PLUS I knew I had to show Cait I was wanting to gain
I looked like an skeleton..........
The chemo also left me w/o an appetite
After my last time I started eating more n more

I am weighing in now at 116 I think
Lost about 15 lbs from surgery

My appetite is okay now
I make sure I eat all the right foods for me in a few stages each day
Have a Hot milk at night to relax me and off to sleepy most times.......

I KNOW cait will be alright I just worry so about her
Last one at home ya know
My son just turned 35 on the 2nd of this mth

Thanks so much both for the care and support

Luvs
And better days ahead for all
That is my heart of heart hope..........and prayers...........LYN

Lyn, wish I could get you and Cait down here to sample some good cajun cooking. Not that exported over seasoned so called cajun cooking but real homecooked..

 My GOOD is we had our Thanksgiving yesterday and

this was the first time

ALL of us were together.siblings

( except for funerals)

I decided I HAD to be the bigger person

and let go of the hurt and yes anger too

That they were never here for Mom nor Dad

I know our parents would have been so proud and I

Also know they were with us looking down

I have a turkey hangover ...ate 5 plates of food

An I got DRUNK

on GINGER ALE lol

Cait ate 2 plates so that is GOOD too

When will I ever learn to say NOOOOOOOOO

Take care all and post your GOOD if you care too

There IS GOOD in everyday no matter what even if it is seeing a humming bird and being the man Sniper is with helping ppl thru disaterous times

Take care all and find your GOOD

Luvs

LYN

Nanners
Happy Belated Anniversary my friend
I am so happy to be back in full throttle

I have missed so many for too long
I would have been on the board Sunday
but had family over for supper and then went to sisters on Monday

Luvs to you my friend

9 yrs so happy for you sweetie

'IF anyone deserves happiness it is YOU

Luvs your friend
LYN