new crohnie recent resection

I have been sick all my life, never knowing i had Crohns.  I was just recently diagnosed after being in the hospital for 3 weeks b4 they did surgery.  Removed 8 in of small bowel, spererated bowel grown together, drained abcesses, had piece of intestine folded in half, and appendix infected, my bowel perforated while in the hospital. Oh the pain! i was on more meds then i can count. the prednisone and morphine with the worst side effects. i left there shaking with tremors, emotional basket case.  ive been off those drugs for a month and still have a lot of anxiety and cant sleep without xanax. i hand anxiety panic to begin with but now it seems off the hook. i have a lot on my plate car repossed, lost job, bills out the rear, and cant get around real easy or do stuff in the house by myself cause of surgery.  i feel like im going banana cakes, i cant afford therapist, i need relief.  tryn not to stress not really workn for  me.