Discomfort inside of my anus

It feels like a hemorrhoid when I have a BM it feels like razor blades but after I go it feels as if I have an abscess in that spot. I checked inside (don't ask me how that went haha) and the only thing I could note was something throbbing and ever so slightly protruding.

I have very loose stools and to control the pain (isn't sharp but dull and achy and persistent and when I tighten my anus I feel discomfort).

I don't know if this is a hemorrhoid or something else.

I know I am going to the doctors on Tuesday for my remicade but just wonder to see if I should really be concerned or is it just a hemorrhoid.

I agree with @Jason. If it's hemorrhoids they can prescribe a cream or gel that you can apply anally to help shrink tissue and help with pain directly. It was a lifesaver for me last year. It would be good to have them check, though, just to make sure it isn't an abscess. Those can get bad fast if you're not careful.