Posted 10/12/2012 6:16 PM (GMT 0)
This is something I struggle with often. Sometimes I feel like there is so much more I could do - with my career, my family, my hobbies - if it weren't for the concern about stress and unpredictability of how I'll be feeling day to day. I pick and choose commitments very carefully. If it isn't something that is really, truly important to me, I don't do it. I don't keep in touch with and see nearly as many friends as I'd like. Traveling? Forget it unless there is a special event to attend. Extra assignment at work, I won't be volunteering. But my kids football game early in the morning that I need to wake up hours before just to get out the door? Yes. Travel to a good friends wedding? Yes.
It sucks that it has to be this way, but I prioritize everything and not everything makes the cut that I want to. Sometimes it makes me look selfish. Or anti social. I try to feel fortunate about the things I can do, that others maybe can't. And I do have much to be thankful for. Even with CD. But it still makes me mad that I can't do it all. We play the hand we're dealt. I will say that CD has really made me take stock and assess what are the really important things to me. I often ask myself, is it something I will regret not doing years from now. If it is, I take the risk and do it. As the line from A Dirty Harry movie says, "a man's got to know his limitations"