wishing I had taken a picture of my butt

I wish I had a picture of what my bottom looked like pre crohns....cause lately (keep in mind I had fistulectomy and draining seton surgery 3 weeks ago) I would love to remember what it looked like before I had all these problems. I mean its my butt, really for what purpose it serves, I should care less what it looks likes so long as it functions and gets the job done. I guess I am just realising and coming to terms with the fact that it will never look "normal" or the same again and its kinda makes me said, yes I am dead serious :(

I had/have a skin tag as a result of a bad fissure at the 6 oclock, then this year another fissure at 12 then the abscess fistula thing. I think in my head I kinda thought when I went in for the surgery for the abscess/fistula that they would be able to fix the skin tag and fissures too! They did work on the 12 oclock fissure but the original one was too inflamed to touch, so I left with it the same and an added cut from surgery and a seton.., I think i thought it would look better down there after surgery, I mean its improving but Im realising that its always going to look a little damaged and such....*sigh* Well there is my rant and here is me putting it out there that I am officially retiring and puting to rest my "behind" of pre crohns, although sadly, moving forward with my new battle scar blazing behind of today!