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Posted 12/12/2013 12:56 AM (GMT 0)
 

Hello.

It's that time of year again, when my doc treats me to a holiday colonoscopy.  Here is what I am freaking out about . . . .

Lately, I  have had some pains (nothing major . . . I still run 5 miles / day and function relatively normally on a day-to-day basis), but I have also had strange bowel issues.  I feel like I have to go, and either nothing happens or I just have something small and very loose (I also have a lot of gas and a somewhat bloated feeling).  Also, I get the "incomplete evacuation" feeling as well.  I have not had a normal BM in weeks (although I have had a few large watery BMs).  I suppose either (1) my condition is worsening (about which I would not be thrilled), OR (2) that my CD has "turned into" colon cancer.  Maybe I am over-reacting, but I am feeling this way because someone I know recently passed away from CC (he was 48), which prompted me to do what I know I should avoid . . . reading too much stuff on the web.  I have had CD since 1989, and as a natural-born pessimist, I am convinced the doc is going to deliver terrible news.  I base this on the fact that I am now considered "high risk" and on my symptoms.  Any thoughts/advice?  My scope is Monday morning.

Thanks.

45y/o male

CD since 1989

Remicade

6MP

Partial colectomy in 1998   

Posted 12/12/2013 1:58 PM (GMT 0)
Your symptoms fit with CD and I doubt you have colon cancer....you need to try to distract yourself until Monday the best you can. I'm so sorry about your friend. It is natural to get more anxious when you lose someone, but you need to try to consider that the odds are on your side.
Posted 12/13/2013 6:15 AM (GMT 0)
The feeling of having to go sounds like tenesmus, you may likely be flaring in the rectum and need rectal meds...it's good you'll be getting scoped soon, then hopefully your doc get can you on track.
Posted 12/13/2013 9:30 AM (GMT 0)

I think you hit the nail on the head when you referred to yourself as a "natural born pessimist".

I can relate to that. You seem to be having a bout of anxiety. The fear of colon cancer isn't realistic at all, but understandable.

The findings of your colonoscopy should allay your fears. If the worry persists, perhaps you should get a regular colon cancer screening.

How long have you been on Remicade/6mp? Has it worked well for you?

Posted 12/13/2013 2:49 PM (GMT 0)
73 Monte . . .

Thanks for your reply.

I have been on 6mp for approximately 10-12 years. That, combined with Remicade (since roughly 2000), has been keeping my CD pretty much in check. I have occasional flare-ups when I need some prednisone for a month or so, but I have been happy with the results over the years. I had my one surgery back in 1998, and so far, these drugs have prevented me from having to have a second one.
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