Posted 5/12/2016 5:33 AM (GMT 0)
I have upper and lower scopes scheduled for June 4th, but that isn't really stressing me anymore. A stinking eye exam is making my stomach sick tonight.
My brother was diagnosed last month with having both of his eye lens detached. Which from what we are being told is usually a genetic connective tissue disorder of some sort (usually something called Marfan's, but he needs more tests and don't really fit the characteristics for it). Neither of my parents have it, no one in my family does that we know of. So it's possible he's the first and only. But hey, we are known for our rare diseases him and I. So I'm pretty flipped out that I'm going to have it too.
I have anxiety about anyone touching or messing with my eyes. I haven't been to the eye doctor in 10 years, because they went to touch my eye to check the pressure (not just the air puff). My reflexes kept making me look away (has to touch the center of your eye) or pull my head back. The eye doctor was a bit of a jerk and starting yelling at me, tried to hold my head up against the machine. It wasn't pretty, and now my anxiety to go back even is through the roof.
But I know I need an exam, not only to make sure my eyes are okay from what my brother has. But also all the steroids I take, the high blood pressure, just having Crohn's. Ugh. I'm freaked out sick and it's not helping my Crohn's. I've got myself convinced that I've got the lens thingy, cataracts, Glaucoma. Yeah, reading on the internet, not your friend. Really wishing I had a Xanax tonight. :(