I'll be seeing the surgeon tomorrow and having an upper GI, sbft, and abdominal ultrasound on Thursday. I'm seeing the surgeon because I've got pain again near my incisions. I can't decide which I'm more afraid of- a problem with the incisions or the hemmies coming back. All the tests are because my abdomen is tender again, I can't stand the thought of food in the morning, and I'm having right side pain. Before it was only on the left.
I feel guilty about having all these tests. Yes, I feel like crap. But it's not that bad. I may wish I could stay home in bed all day, but I'm still physically capable of working. Exhausted by the end of the day, but I make it through. I know a lot of this is coming from the way my doctor reacted the first time I felt like this. He just kept sending me home with orders to get more exercise and eat more fiber. With a heavy but unspoken side-order of "and quit bothering me, you big baby." I feel like I'm being a whiner and a pest to complain about this stuff. I'm afraid I'll go through all those tests and waste everyone's time when they show nothing new. And then my new doctors will start to think I'm a whiner and a pest, too. I just want to feel better.