i`m a 26year old lad wiv cf and dierbeties.i`ve done judo 4 14years,fought 4 wales in britan,ireland and europe.i have trained cage fighters so on a posotive note i`m sound but as i`m getting older and more of my close friends die it brings out my dark side.i have a temper problem which has ALWAYS BEEN THERE but now hard drugs and drink seem 2 get the better of me 2 often and on more than 1 ocasion landed me in prison
i dont like who i`m becoming but some times the bottom of a bottle seems easyer,i hate my selve and just find it easyer 2 be bad
but what do i do,i feel so ****ing helpless and that makes me mad.please ANY ideas coz i`m hurting people now 4 the wrong reasons and its not good.i will end up in prison just coz i cant hack feeling less of a person.
