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Posted 1/4/2008 3:26 AM (GMT 0)
I got on tonight to write out some of what was happening but as I signed on I couldnt help but see so many posts about relationships and how awful they are or how unhappy someone is. I would never judge anyone so please dont take what I say as an attack but I need to tell you especially tonight when I got on here to vent what I feel.

 

Bare with me,  I was packing tonight and ran across some memories of me and my guy.  Memories that brought me to tears.  I sat on the floor of my kitchen and cried and cried until I could cry no more.  I am sick to my stomach in knowing that I dont have the  one more chance that I so want especially after seeing my sister and realizing that life and love are so precious. The ones that do, listen please, there is not a minute that goes by that I dont think of my darling, not a day without tears or sadness, not  a day of wishing I would wake up and realize that this is all a bad dream and especially I miss sharing all the great stories of my trip with my sister. There is a special time between my sister and I where something was said that could only be a sign from God.  I fear that I will never get to share my stories with him especially the conversation that my sister and I had one evening.

 

I know that I am rambling but I guess what I am trying to say is our depression is hard enough to fight and to understand that if you have someone that is trying to love you in whatever way they can,  I WANT YOU TO THANK GOD EVERY DAY FOR THE CHANCE THAT YOU HAVE and never ever let go of it no matter what!!!

 

Tomorrow is another day I look out the window to see him...........................

Posted 1/4/2008 3:37 AM (GMT 0)
Thank you Teresa. Love as strong as that certainly transcends seperation. My heart and thoughts really go out to you. Thank you for sharing that with us.

Joseph
Posted 1/4/2008 10:23 AM (GMT 0)
Hi Teresa,

That was a lovely post to read, i'm sorry for your sister, love is such a wonderful gift we have but so many people tend to take it for granted. I know i did, well i didnt realise how much i loved my husband until he left me. He left in March but i still love him so much and we are still very close, he's probably my best friend now. Take care Gillian x
Posted 1/4/2008 1:50 PM (GMT 0)
Thank you Teresa. Your post gives me reason to hang in there a little longer with my own depressed/BP wife. I know she needs me, regardless of how she treats me or talks to me.
Posted 1/4/2008 8:14 PM (GMT 0)
I just love your positive attitude. We all need to pick up on your energy. I have a lot to be thankful for as far as love goes right now and your post is a reminder to me. Don't take anything for granted.

Thanks

Karen
Posted 1/5/2008 8:21 PM (GMT 0)

Teresa,

You said that straight from your heart and you are right, if we can just stop and look at all the good and realize how much people do care for us we will find that happiness and love. I am glad you had your time with your sister.  Now when you look out that window, I hope you see him.

God Bless

Kitt

Posted 1/5/2008 9:45 PM (GMT 0)
You are right - love is so important, and yet we let it go or let it slip away sometimes. It can be hard to let people love us when we sometimes doesn't even love ourselves. Your post has made me think about the people around me that I should be more grateful for. Thanks.

-Flop
Posted 1/6/2008 2:11 AM (GMT 0)

I am so happy when I read your replies to this post.  The love and commitment I had with this man is as fresh today as it was the day I met him.  I am so glad that you felt the genuine meaning of the way I feel in my heart.  To know that it brought so many of you joy and rejuvenation in your relationships makes my heart smile.

 

As in one of your posts you said that " a love like that transcends time" how true that is

and how selfish and unthinking we can be sometimes when we question the love that we feel down inside that we sometimes can take for granted without really knowing it. 

 

My NY resolution is too really look into myself and realize that I have a chance to make things right if I really want to.  I have always thought this but I have to say after I saw my sister and the love between she and my brotherinlaw, it made me realize that the person I hurt the most is the one God meant me for.

 

It is unfortunate that seeing my sister and being part of her life for a couple weeks made the decision to follow through on the promise that I should have kept the last 4 years.  Not only is a promise to God but a promise to myself to be with the one person that I cant live without.

One day I hope to be his wife.  In my heart, that is more than anything to aim for.

 

Keep the love in heart and soul and you feel the love that I convey in this post, Thank God for them and never let them go!!!!

 

God Bless All of You

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