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Posted 5/28/2008 12:45 AM (GMT 0)

Dixie,

You can do this, and I am glad to see you know you are young, strong and a beautiful person.  The whole world is yours for the taking so keep on being positive and start with the planning for what you want and what your and your children need.  Don't let anyone put you down.

Kudos to you.

Kitt

Posted 6/5/2008 2:26 AM (GMT 0)
I have fallen again! I hate the way people treat me! I hate the way i can't do things myself! I hate that i have this depression! Why cant i be normal! I am a week minded women. I want my own backbone. i wanna be able to remember things better> i hate being tired all the time id rather sleep then do anything! right now i have 2 of my brothers here with me at my home and my mother .. who is addicted to VODKA! why cant she see that she has 7 kids and 15 grandchildren that just want her back. We want her to be happy!! i cant be happy if i dont have people around me that is not happy! I deserve this though God is upset the way i choose my life i gave up my morals for a boy whom i married i have lost it .. and ....
Posted 6/5/2008 2:55 AM (GMT 0)
Dixie,

Relax, take a deep breath and just relax. You are not being punished by God. It doesn't work that way. You just have a situation that you are not comfortable with. Can you talk to your mother about her addiction problems? Do your brothers drink with her or do they want her to stop also? What about your husband, does he drink too?

You have taken a huge step coming here and telling us your story. And we are here for you. To try to guide you with our experiences and some hopefully good advice. But Dixie, you really need a therapist to help you through all of this. To help you deal with your mother's addiction. Even alanon would help. Think about it and keep posting. We will help you as much as we can.

hugs, Karen
Posted 6/6/2008 6:09 AM (GMT 0)
Hey Dixie Darlin,
this is the other Dixie on the boards - Dixie is my real name, is it yours? now slow down and hang in there girl friend, and no God is not upset with you, once we ask for forgiveness from God, in his eyes it's gone - and he will help you bring good things from bad events in our lives. We only have to ask. I had my son 5 days after my sixteenth birthday - I am also the youngest out of seven kids & from a abbusive rough back ground, Thru the Lords help and blessings right now I have two grandkids I enjoy everyday and I'm a Sunday School Teacher! Now those 2 babies of yours are blessings and those blessings deserve your best from you. So stand up straight and tall, wipe your face and lets get down to work.
What part of the country are you from and how big is your town?
Did you get acopy of the reports from your Dr you was seeing for the car accident? if not call his office and ask for a copy of you records, which they will give, you will need to sign a form releasing them to your self.
next make a copy for your self to keep and take the other to your local hospital emergency room and tell them you need help - nearly all hospital - except for private ones, have programs for people who are low income and will be able to help you get the tumor checked out and get your thyroid undercontrol and the drug companys even have programs to help with meds. The hospital usually have socialworkers to help you thu things and find all the resorces you can get.
But the tumor and thyroid really needs to be taken care fast fast fast, these two things can be causeing a lot of the problems you are now experiancing.
Then we can start on getting an education and making life work for you so you can rise above all you have gone thru. and be the mommy for your two you want to be Darlin
will be keepin an eye on ya and yaking at cha.
Posted 6/6/2008 12:32 PM (GMT 0)

Dixie:

This advice you're getting on the forum is what you should follow.

So many people still think it is a matter of self-control,which it is not !!!!  I had a good childhood but inherited my dad's genes for depression.  Even as a child I was sad at times but didn't say anything.

I am a retired woman and I just started an anti-depression medicine and was taken off an anti-stress pill. I am not going to tell you my story because you are in such pain - but know that others understand you, that is why they are on the forum. Stay on the forum if you possibly can-and by all means, call the help places suggested by your moditor.

Lack of Money is the cause of so much violence because people are desperate and go to excessive drinking and dope.  And this is a particularly hard time for Americans in this failing economy with so many out of work due to the negative economy of the country.

I will try to think of some suggestions of agencies to call.  In the meantime, do 1. stay on the board 2. call the places suggested to you by people on the board.

Whatever you, do, never neglect the children.

All love to you and positive thoughts

DeannaLee

Posted 6/6/2008 1:19 PM (GMT 0)

dixiedarlin2

Good Morning, this is Kitt and I am so very sorry your in a bad place.  I have to share with you as you posted that you cannot be happy around sad people all the time.  I am sorry your Mom has the disease fo Alcoholism.

I have depression and my daughter told me she cannot be around me because I am sad and she needs to be around happy people.

We seem to be in a Catch 22 situation don't we?  I agree if my hubby is in a bad mood that I have a tendency to feel worse.

I believe what we have to do is make our own happiness and not let other's words and actions get to us.  You cannot be sad because others are and I cannot stop being sad because my daughter doesn't like it.  Hope that makes sense.

So lets both working on find the good in life that we so deserve.  You are a good person and a very worthy one so please do not think you have flaws.

Come here and post your sucesses no matter how small they may seem. Celebrate the good with us.

Many gentle hugs to you.

Kitt

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