i'd like advice or just someone to listen and respond?

That must have been a really scary and unnerving experience for you, I think to be honest, you've probably at the time tried to put it out of your mind and forget about it, or sometimes what I do is detach myself from things that hurt me and it's like I'm watching them happen to someone else, then later on - sometimes years they come back to haunt me! about 5 years ago I was in a very violet relationship which lasted about 3 years, at the time It didn't hurt me too much, I detched myself, now I have nightmares and all sorts of irrational fears. Maybe this is what is happening with you!

Have you tried talking to a counsellor about this? 

I don't know what you should do with regards to telling anyone, I probably wouldn't because I always tend to sit on the fence and not rock the boat, but if telling someone would help you then maybe you should do it, try and put yourself first and think about what will help you to move past this?

anyway hope you can feel better soon x

Hi there is Kitt and I am glad to meet you.  You are meeting this lady for the first time, what better time then to tell her what brought you to her.  Remember she is a therapist and your in a professional relationship.  She expects to hear what is going on in your life now and in the past so that she may give you the best care possible.

I think you can do this.................work through your problems and you will learn how to cope with the awful feelings of abuse.

Bless you and your on my mind so know your not alone.

Kitt