i need advice

hello, you can call me, created, hence my display name. i used to be depressed alot a few years ago from like 17 to 19 or 20 now i am 21 years old, and i feel like i am losing it again. my g/f of over a year, is lazy as all hell and is gaining weight left and right, and it is getting to a point where i am beginning to become un-attracted to her. now i know that looks are not everything, and i am a firm beleiver in that, but there needs to be at least a little bit of attraction. and with her gaining weight,she is unhappy with herself and gets very aggrivated and pissed off all the time ad takes it out on me sometimes, and it pushes me to get aggrivated and we argue, now dont get me wrong i love her very much but it is getting to a breaking point. other than that i just have been feeling like crap and i have been feeling like a want to do things, things i havent done in years, things that landed me in a phsyc hospital for 2 weeks when i was 17. i just need advice on what to do with everything, maybe i dont even want to hear advice, maybe i just need to get all this out, i just, idk.....

Hi Created

First of all welcome to the forum.

I agree with Karen,it is time that you get yourself into the doctor and start taking care of those feelings.

Also, if you are not happy at home,I would talk to your g/f and let her know.

It almost sounds like your g/f is depressed also, have you talked to her about what is going on?
Obviously something is,and it may be as simple as she is not happy herself and you both need to make some major changes in your life.

Hey Created,
Are you seeing a therapist now? If not, I would seek help asap. You seem to need a little help and guidance right now. I would not want to see you back in the psych ward. And about your girlfriend. Well, do you really love her? Is she someone you can see yourself spending the rest of your life with? If not, maybe you should re-evaluate your relationship and make some changes. And looks aren't everything but your right, you should be attracted to her. I think queenbee is right about not being attracted to her because of the way she acts, not because of what she looks like. She seems to be causing you alot of un-needed stress. Hopefully you can work it out, but if not it might be time to move on. Keep posting. We are all here for you!
Rachel