lala,
Hello and welcome to HealingWell. I am Kitt and I have had Anxiety and Depression for over 26 years. I agree that depression and anxiety frequently go hand in hand.
With medication, therapy and a lot of support from so many over the years I have learned to accept my dx and to keep moving forward with my life. You cannot go back and change the past so learning to let go is your best choice.
I agree with the others, the best place for you to start would be with your physician and from there perhaps therapy.
Coming here and talking with us was a wise thing for you to do as sharing our problems helps lighten our load.
Gentle Hugs
Kitt