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Posted 10/15/2009 11:41 PM (GMT 0)
I'm always depressed and I'm sensitive. I realize that my face always has a worried look no matter how hard I try to change it. And I'm clumsy and have low self-esteem. I fail at everything. The only thing I thought I was good at slaps me in the face with failure. I lost 3 games in a row and I know that that wasn't my best but I can't do my best no matter how hard I try to concentrate. I'm a screw up and I'm alone always. All these emotions bottling up inside me is killing me. I'm *****d off, sad, crying, frustrated. I just want to ****ing die.

1. No discussion of threats of suicide or violence. (ie.  threats of suicide or self-injury, or threatened or intended physical harm).  

Im sorry I had to edit your post, per forum rules- I am going to reply to you in a moment.

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Post Edited By Moderator (Mazfire) : 10/15/2009 5:55:00 PM (GMT-6)

Posted 10/15/2009 11:53 PM (GMT 0)

Your post says you need a psychiatrist- do you have a doctor who can refer you to one? Making an appointment is a great first step. Until then I will give you a couple of links to free online therapy:

Free CBT Online/MoodGYM

http://moodgym.anu.edu.au/welcome

E-couch Online, free

http://ecouch.anu.edu.au/welcome

I hope you stick with us, can you maybe give us a brief history of yourself and how we can best help you?

Take care and hang in there,

Maz XX

Posted 10/16/2009 12:00 AM (GMT 0)
I'm 16.
My mom and I don't have a good relationship and since I'm still young, I can't move out of the house. My mom's divorced and Dad's elsewhere. I don't keep in touch with him either. I'm always frustrated with what I can't do and I end up letting myself cry. My friends can't help me with this because they don't know how to deal with my depression. If I tell my mom about this, I don't think she's going to react well to it. I can't do anything. I can't do chores, sports, or school. I thought I was good at one sport and planned on getting better and I knew I got better but when it actually came to play a real game. My mind just wouldn't let me do my best and just "whatever" through the whole game. I can't keep my concentration very long. I end up thinking about my past that I can't forget. How I was so different no one accepted me. I thought I changed but I'm still the same pathetic person I am even if I tried changing my outer appearance. When my emotions all bottled up inside, I cry it all out. I want to hit or kick something or someone I could scream it all out but I live in the city, there's no beach or anything. I can't stand being me. I hate my own existence.
Posted 10/16/2009 12:01 AM (GMT 0)
Hi depressed-here. I'm pretty far down the ladder tonight myself. But, don't ever give up hope! You will find the right meds, they will work and you will feel better. I've been down this road a lot of times and every time I come out better for it. I know it sucks to feel all this pain, but it will get better. Please stay in touch with us here. I'm pulling for you!!

Posted 10/16/2009 12:07 AM (GMT 0)
DH, I know you don't feel like you have a good relationship with your Mother. I didn't feel that way at 16 either. But I bet if you sat down and really talked to her heart to heart that would help. Most Mothers will do anything to help their own child. I'm sure yours will want to help you get through this too. You never will know if you don't give it a try. You're not pathetic. You're just hurting badly right now. Know that we are here, that we care and hope we can help you. {{{{{HUGS}}}}} I hope to see you on here again.
Posted 10/16/2009 1:00 AM (GMT 0)
I am. My friend just said so...
Like I haven't talked to her in awhile and she was like,"hey I heard you don't have any friends at your new school" so which means I'm a loser, literally.
Posted 10/16/2009 11:01 AM (GMT 0)
a good place to start is your doctor. this way you can be assessed as to the best treatments and professional services on offer. by this you can be refered and started on treatments whilst you await an appt. in terms of your safety remember that there is no shame in seeking help. you have been given the appropriate advice by other members. pls call for help if you feel at risk. we care about you. keep safe. jamie.

dx, mdd, severe borderline personality disorder.

Posted 10/16/2009 2:27 PM (GMT 0)
HI there,

It is so hard to be depressed at your age. You feel like there is nothing in the future for you. But that isn't always so. You have your whole life ahead of you and things will change. Things will get better I promise. You might need something as simple as an add medication. So you can focus. Keep trying, talk to your doctor. There is help out there. And of course we are here for you. We have other young adults like you that have gotten better here. And I am sure that some of them will post.

Sometimes it is hard to make friends right away at school. And you should be patient. Often the longer it takes, the better the friend becomes.

Best wishes,

Hugs, Karen
Posted 10/16/2009 4:05 PM (GMT 0)
Hi

Welcome to our forum you really have found a great support forum and we are here for you. So sorry to hear you are having a rough time with depression at the moment, As suggested you should go and talk with your doctor as there are lots of options which can help you such as medications, therapy. I think it would also be a good idea to talk with your mum about your situation as i'm sure she will be able to support you through this rough time, It took me years to tell my parents about what I was going through as I was anxious about what they would say but it turned out well and they really are a great source of support for me now. Keep up with your sports if you can as it has been proven that exercise can improve mood. I hope things work out for you and keep posting here as we are here for you my friend your part of the HW family and we can relate to what you are going through so stick with us.

Hugs

Ben
Posted 10/18/2009 7:26 AM (GMT 0)
positive words ben. jamie. smilewinkgrin
Posted 10/19/2009 2:40 AM (GMT 0)
I don't want to guys to find me annoying but I really want to change and really need help. And be more open because in my 2 years of hs, including now, I haven't even made 5 new friends. And like I try to ignore it and just like talk more but cause I'm a second year, the first years from my past school who are in my school now, see me and they're like way more open. I don't know why but it bothers me and I get scared and I get back to being in a slump. Like...I just don't want them to see me alone.
I've read stuff like "change what you can first" but I can't and it's shattering my esteem even more when it's already low enough. I'm really pale that I look like a ghost, and because I'm a girl and have those stuff every month, during that time, I look even worse. And that bothers me. Also I want to have a better shape but don't know how to start because I because moody when the clothes I have and wear make me look "flat" and I don't want to feel that way but I do and can't ignore it.

Also I tried that moodGYM but it didn't help me...
Posted 10/19/2009 4:56 AM (GMT 0)
If you want a better shape, you have to exercise. That firms you up in places that matter. It gives you good body tone. Using light weights and getting an exercise mat helps. You can get a video and do it. What you want is muscle tone. That pulls the rest together. Or you could start at a gym. You will meet people who want to be fit and healthy. Either way, it is something that you have to work at. There are many different techniques. I use to watch body electric. I really liked the workout. But it has really changed a lot.

I think that focussing on something like that would be good. If you can't do that you can always get a book about exercises that you can do at home if you are comfortable with that. But walking is good. But if for instance you want a nice shaped butt, you would tighten that muscle when you walk. Squeeze your leg muscles too. Think about those muscles and they will get the workout. Suck in your stomache. That will help with that area. Lift your torso out of it, but at the same time press you shoulders down. That gives you good posture when you are walking. By doing this, you can work out just by walking. Plus you are focussing on your muscles. And you are getting oxygen to the brain. Which helps us think more clearly.

Hope that this helps some

Hugs, Karen
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