I'm new I need help

My name is Kimberley, I've never done anything like this before but I'm willing to try anything to help myself.

I've tried face to face counselling but I find it too hard to talk about without turning into an emotional wreck. I hate talking about it because I'm ashamed of the fact that I am on anti depressants and that I'm so weak that I couldn't cope or deal with this myself.

The root of my depression was the break down of my long term relationship. You dont need to tell me that this is a selfish and pathetic reason for my life to fall apart but that's literally what it feels like. It was a year and 3 months ago now but the pain is still as fresh as if it had happened yesterday. I dont want to go into detail about what he did to me and how I didn't cope very well up until now, but I really would like some advice or just someone to talk to. I'm so lonely I have told only two about this but it's been going on for so long now I just want it to stop, I want to feel hope.

I feel like a black cloud is constantly over my head, I dont feel like me anymore just a shell. I cry uncontrollably, I have panic attacks, I hide away from people, I've developed bulimia, I've self harmed, I took an overdose, I have no motivation at all. I desperately need someone to talk to, if you think you can help, please get in contact.

Awaiting any replies,

Kimberley

Hi Kimberley,

Please don't think of yourself as week because you need medications, most of us do. So you aren't weak and you aren't pathetic. You are normal for somebody with depression.

I think that the counseling is good, even if you break down in the session. Crying is a healthy thing, so don't be ashamed of it. As your sessions go on, you will get stronger. So please continue.

I hope that you are feeling better. Keep posting as we are all here for you.

Hugs, Karen