Being Sad is Depressing

I've been in depression mode for at least 2 weeks, maybe 3. 

I can't even make it off of the couch to take my medication or get something to eat.  I slept from 11p-9a, and I just want to go back to bed. 

My family is going to get tired of me wallering around.  I can't do any of the things that normally make me feel really good.  I don't even want to shower/brush teeth. 

This is terrible.  I can't hide from my kids.  They're going to know something is wrong with me (they are 7 and 3).

 

Hi mamalicious,

I have totally been there. You must make yourself go through the motions, at least, no matter how hard it is. Brush those teeth, or you'll feel even worse. And you'll feel guilty for feeling worse. You really need to eat and take your meds too, so at minimum, try and do those things. It sounds like you could use a med adjustment if you're on meds and feeling this bad. Have you called your doc yet?

serafena

Hi there,

First of all, you are not worthless. You are far far from that. You are a wonderful person and it just so happens that you don't feel good.

When I first got fibromyalgia, I was the same way. I ended up spending two years in bed. It was horrible. I was so sick and so weak and in so much pain. But it got to the point that I just couldn't do anything. But the main thing that I knew. Was that I couldn't beat myself up over it. Or the guilt got worse. Then I was more sick.

So if you absolutely can't do those things that you would like to. Just don't punish yourself for not being able to. And when you go to your appointment on Friday, let them know what you are going through.

But as Serafena said, you will feel better if you brush your teeth. lol...

But yeah, I know how you feel. It took me a long time of doctors, and finally finding the right meds for me, and now I am working a part time job. I went seven years without working. But I now feel good about myself. And you will too.

Keep posting and let us know how you are doing.

Hugs, Karen

Thank you very much for your words. I was able to motivate myself to eat, cook lunch and dinner for family, and brush my teeth and take a shower.

I also made it to work today and was productive. I don't feel great, but I am glad that I have people counting on me because that forces me out of the bed. Being in bed does NOT help me.

I'm going to tell my doctor on Friday, I know a medication switch is in order. I just had my thyroid checked and everything was fine with my blood work.

I'm going to try not to feel bad about feeling bad. I'm going to try to focus on Friday being the day that the doctor and I get to try something new that will take me back to the happy mommy wife employee that normally is me.

I've had a decent evening. I managed to start the dishwasher and do 4 loads of laundry. Dinner wasn't great, but it tastes good (we ate rotel cheese dip). It was all I could do to get that done!

I am very sleepy and ready for my bed. The girls were good, sweet, and fun.

Still not feeling top-notch but I have figured out that being in the bed does not help me at all.