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Posted 11/28/2009 2:33 AM (GMT 0)
I am so sorry about the nightmares. I hope that you don't have them anymore. I have really vivid wierd dreams a lot. But not always scarey, but sometimes. In a wierd way.

Hopefully it was just the wine.

Take care,

Hugs, Karen
Posted 11/28/2009 9:24 PM (GMT 0)
I didnt have the nightmare last night thank goodness for that, so maybe it was the wine which I'm not supposed to drink but it was the holiday! Thanks Karen I was really scared to go to sleep last night. I'm glad everything worked out for me today has been and ok day so far!! Once again I'm glad I found the forum
Posted Yesterday 11:21 PM (GMT 0)
I justed posted and it didnt go through sometimes my computer has it's own mind. How things can change in minute I was just find 30 minutes ago then I got a call my grandmother was back in the hospital again!! She has emphazema hope I spelled it write basically she cant breath at all. She's been in and out the hospital this year about 30 times this year I have put in my mind that I'm prepared for her to pass, but as soon as my sister called my stomach started hurting and I started shaking and pacing. I said to myself I thought U could handle this but I dont think I can.

My question is can U prepare yourself for the passing of a loved one, my first grandma died when I was 19 now I'm 40 so I figure I could handle it better NO. I've been doing so good I don't want to sink back in depression and have to try and climb back out again I just don't think I'm strong enough to do that, but I have to because this time around I have to kids age 18 and 14 that I have to be strong for at 19 I didn't. I'm shaking as I'm typing I just hope god is not ready for her, and that I can be a STRONG WOMEN, but my heart seems like it's pumping to fast or something I don't know I'm just scared and I hope this post goes through.
Posted Today 12:50 PM (GMT 0)
i am sorry to hear that your GM is back in hospital. preparation, well there are some things, but as for her passing, as for anyone passing know matter how prepared you are it is always hard. i always reflect on the good times and positives i have had with the person passing. we all grieve in our own unique way. i celebrate the life, the passing-well i see this as an extension of the person going to another plane/existance/spirit, etc. time my friend. time does heal, as we all must. my absolute compassion to you. jamie
Posted Today 5:44 PM (GMT 0)
If this is her time, you will be able to accept it. Just pray for the best. If she is suffering trying to breathe, it might be her time to go. I agree with Jamie, I believe in life after death. Remember all of the good times, you will get through this. We will help you...

I hope tht things get easier for you. In the meantime, try to relax. Breathe... It always helps. Breathe in through the nose and out through the mouth. Focus on your breathing, smelling the roses and blowing out the candles. It really does help to get the anxiety down. You will survive this, as I said, we will help you.

Take care my friend.

Hugs, Karen
Posted 12/1/2009 10:00 AM (GMT 0)
we will. jamie.

my compassionate thoughts and prayers are with you at this time.

jamie.

Posted 12/1/2009 11:40 PM (GMT 0)
Well Dec 2 is the day I have to go see the Prdr that the company picked for me to go see for a second opinion before I come back to work. I'm wondering what there thinking I'm going to loose it at work, my Prdr is the best in my eyes so I don't know what this man is thinking he's going to get out of me. The problem is I'm going to be so nervous he might read that because I get nervous when I meet people for the first time. On top of that my grandma is in the hospital what else can go wrong, I just hope that this man doesn't say she's not ready for work.

What do U guys thinks he will ask me? I figure he's going to read my body language, if anyone has an ideal what he will ask please post it so I can prepare myself, I'm scared an its on 6:35 on Tuesday Wow!! Thank U guys for praying for my grandma thank U so much!!
Posted 12/2/2009 1:40 AM (GMT 0)
Try to relax and just do the best that you can. If the doctor says that you can't work, can you get disability? It is the companie's doctor right? Just be yourself. Try not to be nervous. I know that it seems hard, but try to take this as it comes. Is he coming in the morning? Or at night? It sounds like his is coming first thing in the morning. You will be okay. I don't think that the companie's doctors want to say that you can't work because they don't want you to get the disability. I could very well be wrong though. I hope that this all works out for the best.

Hugs, Karen
Posted 12/2/2009 2:53 PM (GMT 0)
Hello Karen,

My appt. is today at 1:00 no its not the company dr. it's a pdr that the company picked because they dont believe my Pdr that I'm ready to go back to work. No I have been denied social security 3 times or disability I mean. I reapplied, but I don't think the outcome is going to be good. No the company would love if I got disability, but it's not up to them, the company thinks I'm a liability because of my non-epeletic seizures which are brung on by stress and there thinking when I come back I'm going to be under alot of stress and they don't want me passing out in the factory hurting myself, so thats why there sending me to another Pdr that I don't no to pick and prick at me. O OOOOOOOOO my goodness I hope I make it through this I was nervous last night, but I'm going to try the breathing on my way there I can do this.
Posted 12/3/2009 11:33 PM (GMT 0)
Went to my appt yesterday! Wow he asked me a million questions starting back as young as a 10 yrs old, I told him what I could remember, now I'm waiting on the news if I can come back to work off the report he gives them. Please pray for me thank you.
Posted 12/4/2009 5:32 AM (GMT 0)
Know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. It sounds like you really want to work Realife, I hope that it works out for you. But if you can't, can you get disability from the state? That would be something that I would take into consideration.

Best wishes to you.

Hugs, Karen
Posted 12/4/2009 3:36 PM (GMT 0)

Having a bad morning! One good thing my grandma got out the hospital so that's a relief, so I'm happy about that. The bad is the person that is working my case for disability called and said there waiting on records from one dr my Pdr WHAT!! I dont understand seems like she would of been the first to send her notes in. Yes I am trying to go back to work but I'm also still trying to get disability. Why wouldn't she sent my notes in she is going through  a tough time right now because she moving to a different location, but this is something serious.

Does SSI or disability not understand depression? I can feel myself getting angry I can feel my stomach getting whezzy, I can feel that I'm getting anxious, I can feel I want to scream and say I'm done with this world, I can feel my hands shaking, I can feel my legs starting to shake, I can feel my mind thinking terrible thoughts, I can feel I don't want to do anything today but take my med's and go to sleep, I can feel that I'm lonely, and I can feel people in this world just don't understand. I know my husband would be richer with me gone, but my kids and him would suffer, but like U guys told me before as time goes on they will forget and live there lives but I will always be in there hearts! I just don't know what to do anymore, I'm trying to go back to work because we need the money, but sometimes I don't think I'm mentally ready.  Sorry for so long. PLEASE PRAY FOR ME AND I'LL DO THE SAME FOR U

Posted 12/4/2009 4:16 PM (GMT 0)
Sweetie,

This will all work out for the best.  If the doctor says that you can't work, you should get the disability.  But it is a process.  So you need to be patient.

I am so concerned about how you are feeling today.  I know that others believe that you should push on, but sometimes we need that rest.  So maybe you should take a little nap and get your mind off of things.  Just don't do what I did and sleep for two years.  Seriously, I did that.  Listened to my life going on without me through the bedroom window.  Not kidding.  But I am making up for it now.  I am now working part time, and I love it.  So things do get better.

Who ever told you that your family would get along without you?  Or did you misunderstand?  They need you and you need them.  So never forget that.  There wouldn't be a family without you.  You are prescious and important.  Don't ever forget that.

I hope that you can rest your mind and that you feel better, let us know.

Hugs, Karen

Posted 12/4/2009 6:37 PM (GMT 0)
EXTREMELY PRECIOUS. MY COMPASSIONATE PRAYERS ARE BEING SENT ON THE WINDS OF HOPE. HOLD ON, WE CARE, SO KEEP SAFE AND KNOW WE ARE HERE. JAMIE
Posted 12/7/2009 10:30 PM (GMT 0)
I'm so anxious waiting on the results of the Pdr that the company sent me to it's making my stomach upset. I have I question. Can U go back to work and continue on working to disability or do they just want u not to work at all untill they approved or denied? How many more days do I have to wait Geesh
Posted 12/8/2009 1:39 AM (GMT 0)
we can do certain amount of hrs in australia before our disability pension is affected or comprimised, maybe similiar, not sure but i sure would look into it. jamie. hoping for the best.
Posted 12/8/2009 2:58 AM (GMT 0)
In some cases, you have to go a while without working before you are even eligable for benefits, I don't know how yours works though. Is there any way that you can look into it? Like some rules or something. I would check into it, or call somebody. Somebody at your work maybe.

Best wishes to you.

Hugs, Karen
Posted 12/14/2009 7:56 PM (GMT 0)
Well tommorrow I go see the company Dr to get the results for the Pdr they sent me to. So my mind has been going wild today I'm so scared I don't know what to do, yes I want to go back to work,but I don't know if I can handle it. If they say I can come back that is a good thing because we need the money, but deep down I'm mentally not ready I just put on a front for my husband because we can't live off 1 income. I'm scared to death I took 1 of my klonopin earlier and it took some of the edge off, but I'm a basket case feels like I'm going to throw up. Disability Disability why didnt u approve me.

 

Posted 12/14/2009 9:07 PM (GMT 0)
Try to relax, and take this one day at a time.  If you can work, so be it, take that one day at a time too.  If you can't, then you should get disability.  So either way it could be a win win situation.

Like I said, try to relax with this.  It is stressful I know, but to aleviate the stress, maybe some meditation would be in order.  Try some deep breathing.  In through the nose and out through the mouth.  And take your anti anxiety meds when you should.  That should help a lot too.  Are you talking to anybody?  A counselor or anything?  That might be something that you would need to do.  Plus coming here can help. 

Here are a couple of sites that might help you...

http://moodgym.anu.edu.au/welcome

http://ecouch.anu.edu.au/welcome

Check these out and see if they have anything to offer you.

I hope that things work out for the best for you.

Hugs, Karen

Posted 12/17/2009 4:20 AM (GMT 0)
I'm a little late but I wanted U guys to know that yesterday when I went to my meeting at work and they read to me and my husband what there doctor said. He said there was know way I could return to work actually he said it was 10% that I wouldn't be able to function at any job, me and my husband looked at each other we just couldn't believe what we had just heard. So I asked where do I go from here the company Dr. told me U have to talk to HR about this it's out of my hands, so we went upstairs to HR and they sat us down with the union steward sitting there and said I couldn't return to work and that they had to call the coperate office out of town and ask them a couple of questions.

So I'm walking out to the car very calmly andI turn to my husband and say what do u think they mean and he said I think U just lost your $20 an hour job he was so red in the face and so mad I had to drive home. We got home he had to go to bed he works 3rd and he wanted to go with me, so as he was sleeping I called my job back and said I want a copy of that report they kept telling me no I couldn't get a copy I didn't understand it was my report, so finally I talk to someone and she said I will have your report waiting for U in the nurses station tomorrow I said good I have a Pdr appt at 9 I will be there by 8:30. So here I am today I went to get my report I read it and then the big shots wanted to see me upstairs again I said o no what next. They said we talk to coporate an they said U can come back on 1 condition I said ok what.

They said your Pdr has to write U out slips for blood work so we can see if U are taking your meds the right way every 3 months, I looked at him and said that's all he said yes welcome back to work.


U GUYS I START BACK ON DEC 28TH BECAUSE NEXT WEEK THE PLACE IS SHUT DOWN. THANK ALL OF U FOR STICKING THIS OUT WITH ME!!

If I misspelled some words sorry and if some sentences don't sound right sorry I'm typing pretty fast here
Posted 12/17/2009 2:03 PM (GMT 0)
I know that you want to work sweetie, but I would talk to a lawyer that does free consultation.  Being that they said that you can't work, and now  they are letting you work with doctor slip, that just sounds fishy to me.  They might find an off the wall reason to fire you and you wouldn't get your disability.  So cover these steps.  It is easy to find an attorney that will give free consultation.  So it wont cost you anything.  I just would hate to see you lose your job over something stupid, when you could have been getting disability the whole time.  I could be way off base though, but talk to an attorney just in case. 

I am happy that you are able to work if that is what you want.  I know it is a feeling of accomplishment.  And being able to earn money makes us feel really good.  Just cover your behind by talking to a professional over what just happened. 

It is cold here this morning, but suppose to warm up.  Not a lot though and only for a day or so.  I am already sick of winter and it has just begun.  Plus it wont be officially winter until the 21st. 

I hope that you have a good day today.  Let us know what is going on.   Best wishes on your job.

Hugs, Karen

Posted 1/1/2010 9:10 PM (GMT 0)

Hello all I've been off the site for a couple of weeks. Just want to up date u on what's been going on. Well I went back to Work Dec 28, and I was so so nervous I had diahrrea (spelled wrong) the whole day so I was going to the bathroom atleast every 30 to 45 minutes so the first day was terrible, I got off went home and it continued. OH boy so I went to bed early I was on first the first week as I was saying i went to bed and the alarm went off at 4:00 I have to be at work at 6:00 by the time 4:30 came I was at it again in the bathroom I really didnt think I would make to to work and once I did I was in the bathroom for the first 30 minutes of the shift the supervisors were looking for me.

I really don't know if I'm going to be able to do this we go back on Monday but I'm on 3rd our 3rd is monday night to friday night its only Friday and I'm thinking about it now and my stomach is still messed up to the point were I told my husband I have to go to the ER.. Is it my nerves doing this to me or what I have dropped 7 pounds in a week food looks nasty I cant eat but my stomach is hungry.

If this job is doing this to me I have know other choice but to qquit my health comes first I think we will be barely making it and some of our things would get repo, but I dont know what to do anymore help meconfused  Sorry if it doesnt sound right or I missed some words

Posted 1/2/2010 1:19 AM (GMT 0)
I am sure that you are right about the stomache problems. It does sound like your nerves. I hope that it settles down soon for you. I know how hard it is to try to work when you are sick.

Take care,

Hugs, Karen
Posted 1/3/2010 8:57 AM (GMT 0)
get well soon. jamie.
Posted 1/3/2010 5:02 PM (GMT 0)
We have been off since Wed, that was the last day then we got thurday off for New Years Eve, and guess what my stomach hasn't been bothering me. UNTILL THIS MORNING I woke up thinking

O my back to work tommorrow and my stomach just started making this wierd noises I ate 2 pieces of toast this morning but my stomach is back at it. I don't think I'm sick it's my nerves working over time on me because now I have to go on 3rd with different people, and I don't think my body can take 3rd but I have no other choice but third, I cant hold second or first, they had me on first for 3 days last week to train all over again.

I was thinking that going back to work is good but it's making my stomach hurt nothing bad has happened it's just me, I should of listen to u guys and told me to keep trying with disability which I'm still trying is THIS GOING TO MESS UP MY CASE FOR DISABILITY DOES ANYONE KNOW?

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