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Posted 4/22/2010 9:55 AM (GMT 0)

I think this could be a long one and if it is i'm really sorry. now where to start?........basiclly i feel that i just can't go on any more. In the past i've been told how to find the positive in everything, but at this time in my life i just can't do it. I just feel that i can't go on anymore. I don't know what to do. I've got problems with where i'm living and my life and to two really don't mix. I hate where I am living and at times i'm scared to go out incase i say something to the trouble makers and it makes things worse. We have asked the council to move us, but just keep being told "your have to wait your turn". I even got a letter from GP to try to help things but it hasn't made any differnce. The stress of living here has also started to mess up my health, but the council don't care about that. I live at home with my teenage daughter, disabled father and dog. I am trying to keep down a part time job and look after my father and keep the house going as well as care for our dog. My father does what he  can but he can't do much.  I'll be 36 this year and honesty feel much older, with aches and pains all over. I had a check up with my DR a few days ago and she told me that my blood results were not good, my diabetus is not under control like it used to be and my sugar levers are high to offten, my liver function test came back high again but she can't work out why and i'm still waiting for my biopsy results to come back to see if I have coeliac disease or not, My blood test for coeliac disease came back positive. Then On top of all this I have just lost a well loved auntie to cancer (3rd time round, she beat it the first 2 times). I just don't know where to turn or what to do. I don't want to put to much on my daughter as she is coming up for her A leavel exams (end of 1st year), and she needs to pass these to be able to continue with them next year and then get into uni.

I hope someone has some idea what I can do to get through this as i'm really feel that i'm at the end of all hope and really feel that I can't go on much longer but I know deep inside that I have to for my daughter, father and by best friend - my dog.

Posted 4/22/2010 10:29 AM (GMT 0)
hi lee, my sugars are niot flash either, t1. so i understand this part, i too have a myriad of medical stuff going on. sometimes soldering on his real taxing, thus i feel you need to find a way for some quiteness for yourself. are you able to receive assistance for a carer to come in and help your father? some agencies have volunteers so that you can have a break. in terms of you, well lee, you are a precious being of this earth, yeah it sucks that the council are not coming to the party, i am sure some members in your area will have some info regarding this. i urge you to seek some needed assistance for you, for without this you will not be able to look after you nor your family. i can see that you have and are trying real hard to keep it together; so my suggestion is for you to seek some assistance and receive some nurturing care just for you. i send my healing prayers your way. with compassion, jamie.
Posted 4/22/2010 11:03 AM (GMT 0)

Thanks jamiee i'm seeing my diabetic nurse next week so i'll have a word with her and see if i can get any help.

It's so good to know that this site is here with pepole who really care, don't know where i would be without it.

Cheers guys x

Posted 4/22/2010 11:24 AM (GMT 0)
yeah to that, next week for me too!! diabetic nurse!!!! ps, diabetes and depression is a bad mix hey!!! keep well, here for ya. jamie.
Posted 4/22/2010 12:54 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Lee,

I sure hope that you will be able to move soon. It is no fun living in an area like that. You need to feel safe and happy.

I hope that you get your blood sugars back down. Stress can often raise your blood sugar. So try to relax and take things as they come.

Know that you are a special person and worthy of love and happiness. Know that we here care about you. And always will. Take care my friend. Try to take it one day at a time.

Hugs, Karen
Posted 4/23/2010 6:24 AM (GMT 0)
I hear your suffering and I send much love and support your way. It sounds like one of the main things is figuring out how to relocate. Environment can be so important if you already have other stressors like health. You may have to get creative in figuring that out. Reach out to possible social workers or public assistance and see what options they have for you. Trust you can do it and that all your needs will be taken care and you are loved. Our beliefs about the world can really effect our reality. Also, having a health condition too can make our brains not function as positively as we want. Do all you can to try to eat healthy. Not sure how you eat, but I know if I eat badly, my depression gets worse. It is hard to eat well when you are depressed, yet that feeds the cycle. Take one step each day to try to improve something you know you have power over. Then more assistance will begin showing up as you give it to yourself, even in the smallest ways.
Posted 4/24/2010 6:26 PM (GMT 0)
I can relate to living in an unsafe environment and feeling overwhelmed... When a friend of mine-- who had major health problems--was staying with me.. I had stress on the outside and stress inside my apt and it felt like--I couldn't get away from it all...The stress was unbearable and starting playing havoc with my own sanity & health... Get in touch with a support group in your area, keep interacting online and you will get through it... Years ago, when my mother was dying--the online support I received during that period kept me sane and kept me from giving into the stress overload that comes with taking care of a loved one who is disabled or ill. take care...
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