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Posted 5/12/2010 10:14 PM (GMT 0)
I really need some advice and answers here.  I have depression, anxiety and ADHD.  I take strattera, klonopin, wellbuterin and cymbalta.  I would say the past couple of months have been very hetic at work.  Sometimes I don't even have a chance to catch my breath.    I am also going thru a depression for several reasons, dealing with my dad who is getting dementia, my job, my bosses who seem to jump on me for every little thing.  She (one of my bosses) said she told me she needed some info a while back but I do not remember that at all.  I have heard that sometimes a person with ADHD can be carrying on a conversation with someone and that person may say something that will totally go over a person's head or what I have heard called a "blip".  I have been under a fair amount of stress lately.  My boss says that because I am depressed and forgetful my meds are not working and wants me to tell my dr.  I personally don't believe that the meds really have much to do with it.  Even if you are on  antidepressent meds, is it possible to still get depressed?  Her husband, my other boss told me yesterday if I did not understand something (too long a story) then I can no longer be the manager.  Well, she has told me I have job security.  I don't think I will lose my job, but his comments like this really bother me.  He has mentioned talking to me about my job one other time and I thought I would be gone that day.  Its been over a year.  Even though I know not to believe him in alot of things, he still says things that bother me and I cannnot help it.

Any ideas or suggestions?

Chelsi

Posted 5/12/2010 10:41 PM (GMT 0)
Chelsi,

Do you take anything for adhd? Maybe you should talk to your doctor about this situation and see what he says. I don't think you really have to worry about your job. But I don't know for sure if what she says goes.

Do you see a counselor at all? Have you thought about it? It might be good for you to get some additional support in this matter. Learn how to cope with it. It seems like you have been having problems with the owners for a long time.

But if you are adhd,(I just reread your post) the strattera should be helping you. Maybe you need something different, I would certainly talk to your doctor. Let him know what is going on at work. He might need to adjust your meds.

Take care, keep posting.

Hugs, Karen
Posted 5/12/2010 11:08 PM (GMT 0)
I have been prescribed almost all of the antidepressants available on the market. After a long and stressful period, I found one that worked for me for a while - cymbalta. Lexapro also helped since I suffer from panic disorder also. But I don't think any of the meds can totally take away your depression. They may help with a lot of the symptoms, but your mind still thinks the same way. Plus, with all of the added stressors in your life, it's no wonder that you feel overwhelmed. The meds can help with your coping, but when there's so much going on, your brain can't process it all. I agree that you should talk to your doctor about how you're feeling. He's the one that knows what's going on up there chemically.

It sounds like you need an outlet, just to vent. Have you tried keeping a journal? I have done that for years and it has helped me get through things I thought I would never recover from. It's also a good way to say things to people that you want to say - may they be hurtful, inappropriate, whatever - without them ever actually seeing it. That may help out a lot, it did for me. But everyone's different. I just feel like putting pen to paper is just as theraputic as talking to a counselor. Everything you say won't be analyzed, but will get off your shoulders. Then you could even take your journal to your counselor and point out some of the things they may be able to help with. Best of luck to you in your stressful time!

Posted 5/13/2010 1:00 AM (GMT 0)
A brief update.  Unfortunatly it has gotten worse.  After posting and about the time for me to leave my boss called me.  She was really all over me.  I am the first one to admit that I did make a mistake when on a 3-way call with my other boss and a tenant regarding late charges.  I was not thinking straight.  Anyway she was very upset about it.  I called the tenant and told them there were late charges and of course he denied that saying I had told him we had it all taken care of...a big lie.  I am tempted after I talk with him and show him the late charges and he refuses to pay them, of just paying them myself.  That may sound crazy.  But my boss insisted I talk to my dr. and tell her the meds are not working.  I called my pdoc in tears and left a message.  Then I wrote her a letter and faxed it over to her.  I went into alot more detail in the letter cuz you can't leave all that info on a voice mail.  Hopefully I will hear from her (the pdoc).  Yes, I see a therapist and I go on Thur. at 11am.  When my bosses husband found out what time, he asked when I would be on duty.  He told me once I had to be here 24/7 which is the most stupid thing.  That is totally unrealistic.  While I love her as a friend sometimes she is too controlling and overbearing-another long story.  Tonite she told me she was losing her patience with me.  I have been getting kinda snippy with her at times, which is not like me.  Then I calm down and am very agreeable and she still gets very upset.  I think she thinks I am taking all this with a grain of salt.  I am not.  I am taking it very seriously.  I will e-mail her later.  I am stopping by her house to drop some stuff off that they need and will give her a copy of the fax I sent my dr. tonite so hopefully that will help.
Posted 5/13/2010 1:20 AM (GMT 0)
Have you ever considered getting a different job?

Hugs, Karen
Posted 5/13/2010 5:26 AM (GMT 0)

I have, and I may have to.  I may not have a job much longer.  Right now I am hurting so much.  When I signed on the computer tonite, I had a faint hope that I would have an e-mail message but there was not one.  Maybe it is the wrong thing to do, I don't know, I am so screwed up inside.  I sesnt my pdoc a letter and faxed it over to her tonite.  I went to my bosses house to drop some things off.  She was not home but I left a copy of the fax I snt to my dr. tonite.  I think I will send her an e-mail tonite.  I would not be surprised if I get an e-mail saying I no longer have a job.  I really believe it would be big mistake on their part as (and trust me, I am far from being the only person who has said this to me, but I think they would have problems finding and keeping anyone doing this job and putting up with all the crap.  Yes, there is a part of me who wants to go in and pack up all my stuff and j st leave.  I just want to withdrawl from the worldl  I just feel stupid.  I love my job and thought or was told I had job security and want some more experience.  I made a promise that I would s tay there til they sell the place.

Chelsi

Posted 5/13/2010 12:32 PM (GMT 0)
I honestly don't think they will fire you. Who would they get to replace you? And in the meantime, what would they do? But I hate to see you there so miserable. I would be looking for another job in the meantime though, just search around and see if there is anything that you would like. Work is kind of scarce, so if you do decide to leave, find something else before you do so. I wish you the best. Keep trying, talk to your counselor about it and see what she says. See your pdoc too. Try to relax too. You are a good person and you work hard. But don't over extend yourself to the point of getting depressed more.

Hugs, Karen
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