Had my cousin and her friend staying with me overnight until today. We had a great time, went out for a meal and then came back to the house and had a drinking session.
I know the drink wouldn't have helped but now tht they are away and the house is quiet I've came down from the ever temporary high and feel pretty suicidal.
Everything i seem to live for seems to just be things which don't last I need something more perminant as a reason to live not things tht disappear coz i can't take anymore.