Posted 6/23/2010 3:56 PM (GMT 0)
Hey Depressed....I'd have to agree that I too hate the way the world works, hate the way the educational system is in that they do, at times, require people to take classes that are not needed. I have a direct, 100% personal history with this situation...so what I'll do is attempt to summarize my experience and explain my conclusions so that it may hopefully help.
I am 25 (B-day 3 days ago woot) and I have attended one single year of college. When I attended gradeschool, middle, and highschool I literally never received a "C" as a final grade for any class. I did these things without trying or caring, I just did it because I knew that these people required it of me. I hated every moment of school, I despise having to learn subjects that do not interest me in the least. I have to force myself, and even that is a half hearted attempt....but if I find something that is of interest, my brains like a snowball rolling down a slope...faster and faster and more and more momentum. As much as this is something that holds me back in some ways, it does the opposite for others.
When I did my first year in college I had a quite rude awakening. I could no longer float by on being able to find the solutions quickly and easily...there was a requirement of pages of shown work, hours and hours of study. These things were foreign to me for the most part because of the fact that I never needed to study or show any of my work in the past, the solution was all that was needed. I found myself becoming more and more upset at the fact that I was being forced to take classes that I hated, that meant literally nothing to me. Even with saying all that, Karen IS right, there are some classes that you will indeed end up using in your life that you do not see now...but certainly not all of them.
So I spent one year and then did not return for the second. I was thinking that I am not going to pay for classes that I can't sink my mind into...what's the point? I had gone to college because it was "the next step", everyone knows you go to college after highschool, get popped out of your cookie cutter and are launched into the business world. Well apparently that line of conformity was not suitable, because I was not able to handle it. So at this point in time I found myself where you are right now...upset...unsure....verging on panic.
At the present I am planning to go back to school for Psychology, Philosophy, and Counseling. I am going back because ---> I <--- was the one who chose to, because I wanted to, because I am interested in these subjects...NOT because I am supposed to, or I was told I should, or because I think I might make a buncha cash in this field no matter that I will be a miserable wretch my whole life. That is the key my friend...find what it is that interests you, calls to you, something that you can picture yourself successfully doing as your life continues, as you get older. Find something that gives you satisfaction, whether its personal gain, or helping others, or creating and fixing things with your hands. With me I found it was helping others, while even at the same time helping myself, using my gifts correctly...I've got to say it was quite a realization. There most certainly is something out there for you that will give YOU the personal want to push on, to accomplish what it is that you were put here to do. Have faith Depressed, He has a plan for us all, its our job to hold off until we find it. It was hard for me...but I am in the process of dealing with it, by no means am I past it, it is more about just going with the flow when needed and then pressing ahead full steam when you see what you want.
Chrsitian