I struggled with depression my whole life. I am a 38 Year old male, I grew up with five sisters and one brother. Both of my parents where alcholics, my dad was physically abusive. Come home drunk and litterally was every meaning of the word "Monster". He quit drinking but he left a path of destruction for our family. Me and my two sisters being the youngist made it. The older ones barely.
I had my first Panic attac when i was 23. I was sitting in my bedroom eating some a snack watching a movie and my heart started raceing, I had just came "OUT" to my mom and family shortly before. I was terrified to think what if my dad found out im gay. After 5 ER visits i went, many test, many medications later, I was diagnosed with Servere Panic Disorder. After 8 months of Xanax..because that is and was the only thing that worked, i winged myself off. 15 Years no anxiety.
Around 5 monthes ago they came back, Ive recently order Lucindas Program from the Midwest Center for only 5 pymts of 49.95 plus shipping and handeling. Im back on the xanax for 2 months now and am looking for a new approach to this again...Ive always heard it said "Its Mind Over Matter", If you dont mind..then it dont matter. Careless i know but i have to find a new way to deal with all of this Stress in my life. I know it will work for me because im going to give it my all!!! Im a Licensed Cosmotoligst Now for 14 Years, Stress from my Clients, From my Family, and from My 15 year Partnership with Him. I love everyone and and take in all there problems and not careing for myself. Im going into it with a positive mind, and i hope to make something great out of it!!! Ill keep you posted!!!