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Posted 12/16/2010 3:54 AM (GMT 0)
Ok, I know that sounds silly and childish, but I don't feel good. I feel like everything is falling in around me, and it won't get better. I seriously had a moment yesterday where I was angry at the Christmas tree and all of it's twinkling happy lights. I feel like I cannot control my thoughts or emotions and it is really freaking me out. I spent a good half hour thinking about if anyone would visit me if I ended up in a mental institution. Does this get better? Does depression go away for good? Or is it something you always struggle with? sad My doctor just upped my meds, hoping that helps for the time being, cause I was feeling good there for a while... Is this normal to feel this way? I just have trouble with the fact that I'm 23, have a great life and already feel this way....
Posted 12/16/2010 2:23 PM (GMT 0)
chiquita181, I would suggest getting some therapy. It works most of the time. I admitted myself into a psyciatric center and it was a pretty good experience. You have to do anything you can to help yourself feel better.

HARA

Posted 12/17/2010 10:09 PM (GMT 0)
Just reach out and ask for help,  come here and talk to others who are not feeling in the Christmas spirit and figure out how you can feel good about yourself. 

Remember this is just your head playing tricks on you and with work and medications things will get better.  Try not to anticipate the future and stay in the moment which is right now.

If your feeling angry try thrown paper plate,  they are much easier to pick up then a Christmas tree mess.

Gentle Hugs,

Kitt

Posted 12/18/2010 1:46 PM (GMT 0)
sometimes when i get really angry i beat the crap out of a cardboard box, it helps for the moment but really does nothing to kill the anger. I usually have to remove myself from the situation and sit down and do some breathing. i think its a great idea to maybe do some therapy, i started going once a week a while ago and am down to once every two weeks now. It really helps, they teach you methods for dealing with the thoughts that you feel arn't really your own. I found meds helped but the therapy was the biggest helper by far. Give it a shot, it only takes an hour a week or so and for me has done great things. I always hate saying this but i don't think depression ever will completely go away but therapy has given me the tools to deal and get an upperhand on it. and it is getting easier and easier to kick the stinkin thinking.
Posted 12/18/2010 2:53 PM (GMT 0)
I highly agree with the therapy.  I too go.  And I have gone for years.  It really helps to keep things in check.  So don't give up on that option. 

Medications have also helped me.  So the two together is a great combination, but nothing beats a good session with a therapist.

Best wishes to you.

Hugs, Karen

Posted 12/18/2010 3:28 PM (GMT 0)
Thanks guys. I'm already feeling some better. Sorry about the crazy post, i really wasnt feeling good that day. And I've been really wondering about the therapy thing, that is something I haven't tried. When my health insurance kicks back in January I will go see someone... Do they. Have specific things they ask you or is it more of a venting session type? Cause I'm really not a big talker and I always have a hard time putting things in words... I don't know... I just feel nervous thinking about actually saying how I'm really feeling to someone. It makes me feel ungrateful that I even feel the way I do..
Posted 12/18/2010 4:12 PM (GMT 0)
Don't feel ungreatful. You are a wonderful person in a little need of help. Therapy can go either way. Some let you talk, some ask questions. I hope that you get a good therapist. It makes all the difference in the world. I have a lady that I talk to. We get along great. I love going.

I hope that this helps.

Hugs, Karen
Posted 12/18/2010 5:44 PM (GMT 0)
Karen, thank you. It really just makes me feel better to know that there are others out there struggling with the same thing, and that there are ways I haven't tried to help me feel better. This site has been such a help to me. Have a Merry Christmas season!
Posted 12/19/2010 4:07 AM (GMT 0)
There are definately others in the same boat as you. I am glad that we can all get together here and share experiences and learn from eachother. Also the support is wonderful. I hope that you have a joyous holiday season and a very happy and healthy new year. That is what I write on my Christmas cards. lol...

Hugs, Karen
Posted 12/19/2010 9:43 AM (GMT 0)
also struggling with xmas. jamie
Posted 12/19/2010 4:00 PM (GMT 0)
Many people deal with Christmas.  I find that I do well through Christmas but right after the holidays I may plunge a bit so this year I am going to make sure I have some fun plans after Christmas and not get into a funk.

You are not alone in this so keep on moving through one day at a time. 

I wish you peace,

Kitt

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