No body likes me, everybody hates me...

at school I really want to hang out with my so called "cool" girlfriends. But somehow I have a feeling that I am always not invited. Lately too, I have been looking in the mirror and I realize that I am very unnatractive and very fat for my hight. I think that is why they hate me. I love them so much, and I dont want to leave them.

I was in the bathroom today, and two of them came in and I realized they were talking about me and how much i am annoying and how much they hate me. I really wasnt suprised because I already new this. but for some reason, everytime I look back at it I burst out in tears.

I talked to one girl once and seriously told her I felt like i dont want to live anymore. She replied that this was my problem and I if I dont want to grow up, than that idea wont be so bad.

I feel like I am ugly, uunatractive, and I lack personality. I am really depressed and so tired of my life. i dont want to die, I just want things to get better.

Help me pleaseeeeeee!!!!

I normally don't come on here but I seen your post and had to respond.

All thru my school years, especially in elementary and junior high, I was not liked. My mother died when I was young and I entered a depressive state. I didn't bathe and I was neglected by my father. Who would want to be friends with me? I didn't even like myself. I was stick thin, had braces and acne. I wanted to be liked and loved by my peers. One day, I met a friend. She was not cool like the popular kids but she had a great personality. We hit it off great! We hung out every chance we could. I finally found someone to like me for who I was. And do you know, to this day, we are still friends........we've been friends for 31 years now! But because I found the one person who liked me, not for my clothes and hair (which is superficial anyway) but the person I was I found the courage to hold my head high. I entered high school feeling much better about myself. I am 41 now and I have the confidence and courage of a lion..........plus now I have a ton of friends.

People can be mean, it's the way things are unfortunately and you have to be the bigger person. Do not let these girls get to you, know that YOU are special in your own way. Find someone else who will love you for who you are not what they want you to be.

Sherry is right. Things DO change as years go by. At the last class reunion I attended, I was struck by the fact that the people who were "cool" in school tended to be very uncool as adults. Whereas, many of the people considered to be "nerds" while in school, appeared to be well-dressed and groomed, affluent, genuinely happy, etc.

Your school days only last so long; they are over before you even realize it. As much as possible, try to focus on the positives and let the negatives wither away.