Hello everyone, I'm back. ;)

Hi all, I'm back because I think it is a good idea to keep working on helping myself, receiving help from others, and moving on. I have had some really crazy ups and downs since I last posted, many things are still kinda crazy at the moment...but I am doing better at dealing with things, well some of them. A very close friend of mine died one month ago, she had just recontacted me 3 or so weeks prior, and we had been spending time together. I cannot regret that time, because it was a blessing and a gift to me before she was taken....but in that time (I had known her for years before, we had just drifted apart) I fell for her, and hard. She was a person like NO other, amazing, caring, beautiful, understanding, intelligent, and was the type that is cool with hanging out with your friends. I am still struggling quite a lot with that, I can't think about her much without tearing up to some extent...so I know there is still a lot of need to get out or it will just begin to fester. My problem is finding out how to extract it, or if i want to, or if I even can.

I also very much enjoyed the chances I had in the past to lend my two cents on any given subject. I had luckily been able to help a number of people, and hope to be able to do so again. I shouldn't let my talents stay buried, and I really love the people here :). I am glad to be back, and look forward to talking to everyone.

thanks Jamie, I appreciate it. So where is everyone else? Hehe is there a whole new crowd now? I was hoping for a few familiar faces. I don't have time at the moment for my usual overly long post lol, so I will leave it at this, and I will be around.

;-) I hope to see more. Hey I was wondering also, if there a way that I can view all of my old posts, not just the previous 10 as is the only option I could find. I appreciate it :)

The only way that I know to view your old posts is to go back pages. That is time consuming. Can you remember the name of the threads? Because you might be able to post that into search and find them. If nothing else, the administrator may be able to help you with that. Send him an email and ask if you can't find them. Kitt might know a better way also. Hopefully she will come on and read this.

I am glad that you came back. I am so sorry about your loss. Know that grieving takes time and there is no time limit or right or wrong about it. So embrace the memories and just go with it. If you feel like crying, let it out. Nobody judges you for that. Talk about it here. We can help you through. And know that one day you may see her again.

Best wishes to you. Glad you are back.

Hugs, Karen

GEM, EXCELLENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

JAMIE

Thanks guys for the responses. What would be the best way to contact Kitt to try to get a list of all my posts. Something that I wanted to do in coming back was to reread all of the advise I had given to others because it seems like that is how I can help myself the most. Hehe and I already went the route of going back through the pages, after about an hour I decided it was a bit too time consuming. I appreciate any help you can give, good to talk to you all again.

You could shoot Peter an email at [email protected]. I think he would be your best option in finding old posts. He found some for somebody else that wanted them deleted. He maybe would be able to locate yours. Can you remember the time frame that was? That might help.

I hope that you find them. It may be more difficult than thought. Depending on if you started the thread or not.

Hugs, Karen