A Flip Day

It is one of those days been that way for the past few days I am tired tired of the pain tired of people that I know saying things and doing things behind my back and tell me that what I am thinking is not so when I know it is a fact it comes out the same days hours laters later or the next day always being made to feel like I do not know what I am saying or talking about. I apply for disability over a year
ago and the case is still pending went and had the testing done that they wanted me to have done just waiting to hear the yes or no and also feel that others around me know more then I know about my
casue and are not telling me part of them wanting this hold of control over my life.the way things look right now I get the feeling that I am not going to get it. Was going to our local hospital for people that do not have insurance was told the other day when I went for my lab work that my app on the 9 of the month that I might not be able to see the doctor that the nurse will decide weather or not I need to see the doctor or not. So once I am out of my thyroid meds and pain meds then more less Iout of luck and it appears that certin people do not understand way I am in the mood that I am in . and feeling the way that I am feeling it is like I have to be in the mood to please them it always been that way even when I was a child and my child hooh suck was not normal. As one person in the family said that she was talking this one person out to lunch but I know how it works got to know the family to know what I am talking about said that she was taking this ine person out to lunch but I know that it is going to be my other two sisters and another like I said the truth comes out before the end of the day or the next day they will try and tell me that this was not plan and I know that is Bull I know their looks and how they try not to talk to one another when I am around or when they do and I happen to be where they can see me they split up it is a give away or when they close the door almost in my face. Whats gets to me is that this person,s fib so much and expect me to fall for it they are all out doing their own thing right now on this nice sunny day come tomorrow no one is going to want to do anything but stay in and veg come saturday their is a Bday in the family and I am thinking about not going scent it is a family thing. got so much bottle up inside me right now dose not do anygood for me to try and let things out becauyse I am told that is not so when we know it is. Well I think that I am going to get back in the bed and stay their the rest of the day as their is nothing else to do.

I'm Very sorry to hear that Pat, it's really great that you letting this out i can relate to what your saying a lot, and it's not just you who is suffering like this, i have spent so many days at bed frustraited at my family too, and they are frustraited and worried about me and if i am "Ever" going to be normal again , going to bed is definantly not the thing to do really it is surrendering , do it if you think you have to but just remember it's not going to help you or do you any good it's just a temporary solution.

If i was you considering your situation i would not wait for this Disability to be approved or not, spend your savings if you have to because it is your life, treat your self and find the solution yourself once your better you can work and get the money back.

eric1826 said...
Believe me I know what you are saying. Family can be the most difficult situation to deal with especially if you are not feeling well. You can choose your friends but you are stuck with your family; like it or not. Are you upset that they didn't invite you or that they lie to you about it? It is important for you to understand their personalities and querks so that when they do what they do it is to be expected so it won't be as big of a let down. you know what I mean. If the sun is shining go for a walk or sit out and read or something. Sunshine and fresh air can make you feel better at least for a little while. Laying in bed all day can bring you down or at least keep you there. Stay strong and I hope you feel better soon. I will keep you in my prayers tonight.

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I am gald that I found this site. Just sitting here not doing much of anything nice day out their and was able to get out for a couple of hours and had lunch still not feeling as good as I would like to well as I
as though yesterday the people that I was talking about all six of them ended up togather yestersay the beans were spill out today little by little and then one person made a comment that I was thinking that
they were going behind my back and doing things I did not say anything no heated words good conversation the less I said the more came out which I already new I know them to well. WE are a close family and know them like a book you always know when someone cannot look you in the eye and say that they did not do what they said that they were not going to do then you pretty much know that
they did it. but like I said it dose not matter anymore got to many other things on my mind right now to worry about. I do not have a saving no medical insurance and no money coming in and I am not
counting on this disability cause anything can happen. Well I am going to go and make a shrimp topping for dinner to go with out fish it is seafood night. Thank you all so much for your in put and letting me vent.

Take care
Pat