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Posted 4/7/2011 4:23 PM (GMT 0)
Hi,

 

My name is Donna . I am so depressed and have been my enitire life . I have been on just about every med you can name . I came from a broken home blah blah blah . I cant overcome my negative feelings on a daily basis .

 

NOTHING makes me HAPPY . I have NOT gone to work for the past two days . I don't want to see anyway . I just cant pull myself together . Today is bad I dont usually cry but, I just cant seem to stop . My life is EMPTY . Negative thoughts have taken over my mind . I have NO support system .

 

I gorge on food for comfort which I know is not comforting at all . I am 100 lbs overweight !! I have to work tomorrow . I dont know if I can leave the house ....

 

 

My work hrs are horrible . I have to get up in the wee early am hrs and I am just so tired menatlly .

 

This morning I woke up at 4 am ( sometimes I have to get up at 2:30 am like tomorrow ) I took my shower had coffee. Looked in the mirror and said .....OMG I look so sad and horrible . I just went back to bed .

 

I could go on and on .........Im new here . I dont have any friends . I should say I have had friends but, they have all moved on with their lives . I dont have children which also ake me sad ........My life is over !!

 

please HELP !!! Anyone out there from NNJ ???? tHANK U

Posted 4/7/2011 5:27 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Donna,

I am sorry that you feel so badly.  It is so hard with depression.  And when the fatigue gets you, it is unbearable.  But you will pull through.  Have you thought about a weight loss program with exercise?  Maybe at a gym.  Where you would meet new people and have others working for the same goal.  Just a thought.

I am going to post a couple of sites that might help you.  They might not either, but just in case.

http://moodgym.anu.edu.au/welcome

http://ecouch.anu.edu.au/welcome

Like I say they might not be enough for you, but it is something to check out.

Living with depression is one of the hardest things to do.  Know that we are here to support you and give you feedback from our experiences.  But we can't replace a professional. 

Are you on any medications now?  There are new ones that you might not have tried yet.  I tried many different ones before I found what worked for me.  I even tried some of them twice.  Just never give up.  Coming here can sometimes be a lifeline.  So when you are feeling down, come and read or reply, maybe even give some advice with your life's experiences. 

Keep posting, and I hope that you are having a good day.

Hugs, Karen

PS  Welcome to the site!!!

Posted 4/7/2011 5:32 PM (GMT 0)
Hi sometimes i feel like that, i am very emotional and cry for no reason what so ever. I am currently looking for a therapist so i can have someone to talk to other than my husband because i think he does not understand. just keep your head up and try to find someone to talk to.
Posted 4/8/2011 12:57 AM (GMT 0)
Welcome Donna!

Sounds like your working schedule is disruptive to a good sleep routine. Have you thought about looking for another job? Sometimes a change of routine helps you break out of the rut of depression.

Do what you can to make some changes no matter how small. Take good care of yourself physically, that always helps. Are you seeing a Dr. for your depression?

If you want to lose weight, that is all up to you. Try small changes in your diet, replacing some bad food with something good, heck, you might actually like it!

We are all hear to listen, have been where you are at, you are in alone in this.

Gem
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