not sure what to do anymore

had a bad weekend. and a real bad night last night. I woke up so miserable this morning. I phoned my therapist and cancelled again. he asked what was up and I said I dont feel its helping or the meds I am on so why should I waste my time. He wanted me to set up another appointment but I said no that i really didnt want to anymore. We talked a bit then  i hung up on him. had a real big cry and called him back and said mmaybe i better have another appointment. I read up on depression and things to do to help myself so how come i cant.I just dont see it. it all seems like a waste of time

I've been there before, i know what you are going through, it just all seems pointless, you still feel like crap and have no hope of getting better this is the nature of depression. But you CAN get better, it doesn't happen overnight but you can beat this. Please try to keep up with your therapists apointments its so much easier to deal with this with help rather than going it alone. Please let us know how you are doing

Please keep trying; something will work if you keep fighting. Also if your meds aren't helping you, go back to your doctor and ask to try something else. The reason why there are so many different antidepressants is because some work for some people but not others. You just have to keep trying different combinations until you find the right one for you. Please fight this. I can't tell you how many combinations of medications my psychiatrist and I tried before we found a combination that keeps me just this side of darkness most days.

Take care