still struggling

Jamie - I haven't been here in a while. You have sure had your share of stuff. Your strength is amazing. I'm so sorry you lost your friend. One of my friends died in a fire in february. You will go through some difficult feelings. This is normal. Take care of yourself.

I am not good at funerals or weddings. I don't know what it is about it. I am glad that you are keeping the fond memories Jamie. You will have many I am sure.

Hugs, Karen

just thought i'd update a bit.

the house has been busy again. today i put $ on the ph/net, otherwise i an stuffed, walked the dog and have cleaned the house, yeah manic, so i am using it productively. text my sis, she is cool with me not going to the funeral and fully understands, i thought she would be gutted with me, but i was wrong. will study tonight after tea and a rest. have 6 modules to catch up on. hence i will probably have a late night. steve is still here, over 2 weeks, soon i will ask when he plans to go home!!! need my place back!!!! been thinking about georgia a lot-i miss her soo much!!! my true love. and still is and always will be. i miss female company, and have been thinking about this as well. studies first though. it has been an eon since i have worked, and soon, afer this course i hope, with help to start having a look. i can do i think 15 hrs before my disability support pension is taxed. and i will look at some disability friendly agencies to help with finding employers whom are disability friendly. i know of some. where i am living work in the mental health field is hard to access, also since i have been a client in some of these agencies this could be awkward. anyway it is time for a change from this abode sooner or later anyway. just thinking about my future a tad. geez i am nearly 39 and have not worked in 10 yrs!!!!!! yes been unwell, but it is time for some wellness. see the shrink fri, much to discuss. will keep you informed. sorry i did a long post, sorry, jamie

cheers my good friend. jamie.

I hope that you are able to get some rest. It must be much needed. Keep us posted Jamie, and thanks for bieng such a good friend.

Hugs, Karen

steve has left. glen popped in, he has left................i have my house back!!!! more study tonight. been cold and raining. got some sheets and pillow slips out on the line today. need to walk the dog. helped my neighbour with some car issues, juice, may need to take the jerry to be filled for her. gave her 10 bucks for smokes and shared some with glen. currently chilling to some music. had a semi-big hypo as well. funeral was earlier today, hopefully my sis will pop in to let me know how it went, she hasn't called or texted as of yet. still on the way home i gather. oh well, talk soon. jamie  ps, dog eventually got a walk!!

Good on you Jamie, You sound very busy. That is good sometimes. Let us know how the funeral went when you find out. I hope that your tummy feels better. Keep us posted my friend.

Hugs, Karen

it is 9pm, i am getting wound up-been busy studying today and i helped my neighbour, glen popped in again, had another hypo as well. i think i am stressing about school. cleaned some and have reddied my stuff for school. will be short as i have a shrink appt at 12.30. wondering if i should stay awake and at least finish or nearly finish 1 module? well see. i am tired. ok. am sore of the cold, massive arthritic pain at the moment. thx for listening. take care. jamie

am badly rapid cycling at the moment. it is darn killing me

cheers, yep winter on our foot steps. how are you? jamie. thx.

keep getting by karen!!!!!!!!!!!!!! with compassion, jamie

HERE FOR YOU. how did the shopping go?

had zero distractions today, YES!!!!! had another hypo though. they are nasty. been freezing here down-under, i am close to the coast hence when the wind whips up you know about it!!!! feeling better today, well tonight. done some cleaning. playing pink floyd's the wall on my computer as i type. chilling out; well literally as my compuer is in the kitchen, the main heater and only fixed one is in the lounge!! need a lap-top badly, but i do have awesome speakers and i am playing floyd nice and loud!!! will study later and all day sun. my doc will be wrapped with my sugars. need to do the benches. check ya's later. jamie

sorry about ya stereo. hoping your cd's are ok. take care of you. jamie

rest karen. things will get better. jamie.