need help

i'm 24 and i need help. i don't know what else to do. i'm not even sure how to explain what is going on... i have been depressed, or diagnosed with bipolar or something. i don't know. lately i have been thinking a lot. i really have been thinking . i hate that i have been thinking this way; actually i just hate that these thoughts are somewhat comforting. i know that if i turn to someone for help i am sent to the hospital. what no one seems to understand is that the hospital doesn't work. this is why i'm stuck. i don't know what to do. i just need help and i feel like no one can help me. i feel disgusting..i can't eat because every time i eat i feel fat. i feel like a little kids much of the time, which causes me to curl up in a ball and hide. i know this sounds like i am pitying myself, but i promise you that i am not pitying myself. i have tried and tried to get out of this, but i'm running out of options. if i can't talk to someone without being sent away, what can i do? am i the problem? are some people just meant to die?

you probably think that i sound like a self-pitying baby, which is fine; you are entitled to your own opinion, but please if you do, do not respond. i cannot take negative criticism right now.

Post Edited By Moderator (getting by) : 7/23/2011 7:27:11 PM (GMT-6)

Hi Tristantzara,

Welcome to the HealingWell depression forum. I am glad that you posted. I had to edit some of your post as we aren't allowed to discuss suicide on this forum. But I am glad that you came here for help.

Miss C makes a lot of sense in her post to you. I can tell she really cares about you. We all do. Please do talk to your doctor or a counselor. What you have is a chemical imbalance and if one med doesn't work it doesn't mean that another one wont. Don't be afraid to tell your counselor how you are feeling. They can help you. And you will feel better. You are just at a rough spot. It does get better.

And if these feelings don't go away, please go to the depression resources at the top of the page and contact one of the crisis numbers or sites. Know you aren't alone with this. All of us here have been where you are right now. We all got through it. You can too.

National Suicide Hotline
1-800-SUICIDE (1-800-784-2433)
This is a combined network of the Amerian Association of Suicidology, the National Hopeline Network, CONTACT USA, and many other organizations. Call are automatically routed to the nearest crisis center to the phone from which the call for help is placed.

Helpful Web Sites:
Suicide Hotlines (listed by state)
Suicidal.com (includes Suicide Crisis Center and Depression and Suicide)
SuicidalTeens.com

Hugs, Karen

...one more thing; would it be alright if I continue to talk to you? You can always talk to me as well.

Thank you so much...on both forums. Your help is much appreciated. Right now I need this and I'm so glad I found this. Thank you, both of you.