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Posted 9/3/2011 3:07 AM (GMT 0)
my life has not been what i have wanted it to be. i remember when i was a little, and i felt that everything was good in life. i had the perfect life. i discovered how life actually is when my parents got into a big argument, and i was the one that had to get my dad to stay with us. i have to say that i do love him and all, but problems kept on emerging from that. i just told my mom to divorce him if she wanted to. i know she did not get one because of us. everything is a bit better, but things could be better.

one day i got into a big argument with my dad, and he said that he wished he would have put me in an orphanage. I noticed my world kept on falling apart.

recently, i have had a ton of mood swings and my friends don't understand them. they get mad at me for things i do because they just do not understand me. i do not even understand myself. they are now avoiding me. i have to agree that i do have days when i do unexplainable things. we are still kind of friends but we do not hang out much since they don't communicate with me because they still think about the things i have done. i see them together and it hurts that i am not invited to be with them. i have meet a couple of new people, hopefully future friends. however, it is not the same. i stress with my things, and they seem relaxed.

i feel more alone than ever. it is hard for me to talk to anyone, but i have those days that i feel so bad that i just want someone to listen to me and care about what i have to say.

Post Edited (LostOne_000) : 9/2/2011 9:10:40 PM (GMT-6)

Posted 9/3/2011 6:00 AM (GMT 0)
Welcome to the forums LostOne,

Know that we are here to listen and support where possible. I recently lost 2 friends myself due to my circumstances, I personally also struggle with expressing my emotions properly. I have come to accept that they weren't very good friends to begin with as they use to try and upset me and half the time it would work. My parents always told me that you only really need 1 good friend, if you have more then that's just a bonus. I have come to learn that this is very true, all I need now is 1 very understanding very good friend.
I know what you mean, sometimes it's hard to get the people around us to just listen when we want to be heard.

Anyways, are you currently going to school or are you currently working? reason why I ask is, your school or workplace may have a counsellor you can talk with. On the other hand, your most welcome to come here and vent and talk with us as much as you like. You will find a lot of support from these forums, however I do think that counsellor will be of benefit to you.

Feel free to elaborate abit more on what you were saying in your original post.

Kind Regards

David.
Posted 9/3/2011 1:34 PM (GMT 0)
Hi there,

Welcome to the forum. I am glad that you have joined us. I agree with the above post. Get some profesional oounseling. It really helps. Coming here helps too. You are able to type out your problems and get some objective opinions. You might not always read what you want to hear, but we will try to be as honest as possible.

Take care, and keep posting,

Hugs, Karen
Posted 9/3/2011 6:40 PM (GMT 0)
Thank you, David and Karen. It made my smile when I read these posts. Just knowing that someone cared, and I am not the only one with these problems. I am in school, and I have been looking for counseling, but it is not available until like mid-September.

I think my friends were not really friends since they did not take the time to understand what I was and am going through. This makes me realize how much they care for me.
Posted 9/3/2011 7:56 PM (GMT 0)
I don't think it is that your friends aren't real friends, they just don't understand depression. So don't give up on them just because of that. Some people just don't knokw what to do or say. And often we don't really know what we want them to do or say. Depression is really tricky and unless you have had it, you can't understand. Give your friends the benefit of a doubt and just don't talk about that part of your life with them. We need people that we can go to now and then. That is why this forum is so good for you. You are talking with people who have been there. Keep that appointment for mid September. It will be here in no time. In the meantime keep coming here to get things out and to correspond with others on the topic of depression.

Try to work on your moods. Try not to let things effect your moods. Most of the things that bother us should be taken with a grain of salt. It is just our minds making mountains out of molehills. Life is short, as they say, don't sweat the small stuff.

Take care.

Hugs, Karen
Posted 9/4/2011 1:02 AM (GMT 0)
Even I do not understand depression. I wish my friends would have looked it up and tried to help me go through it. Trying to work through it alone has not really helped.

I try to not let depression get in the way of my life, but it is hard when i know it is there. I will go to counseling because I want my life to improve.
Posted 9/4/2011 1:25 AM (GMT 0)
I just look at it as I have a chemical imbalance in my brain and I take medications and go to counseling to straighten it out. Counseling really does help. Coming here does too. There aren't a lot of people on as this is a holiday weekend. But during the week it can get quite busy. You will get other responses.

Hugs, Karen
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