frustrated

cheers all. thx guys. jamie

How does it feel to be a non smoker Jamie??? We are so very proud of you for your efforts...

Hugs, Karen

Glad to hear that you are doing good. Keep plugging along Jamie. Think of this as a beginning of a jouiney to a healthier you...

HUgs, Karen

thx karen, thx cass, thx all. been brutal. yep a healthier me

am a total depressive mess. stuffed up tonight. feel real bad. rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!! i don't know, 1 foot forward 12 back-so it seems. would be better if i could get some sleep. just not functioning. shrink has only agrred to decrease my seroquel to 450mg, my request, slow tappering, no sedatives nor other changes until i do my bloods for lithium and tegretol. rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
been up all day and from early, it is 10.20pm and i am wide awake!!!!!!!!!! sleepless again rrrrrrrrrr
have totally withdrew am depressed and massively frustrated. i need a smoke, given up, been nearly 4 days smoke free. am on the patch. still need a smoke and maybe a drink. stopped having diareeah and vomting, had it for 8 days in a row. was very sick indeed. my brain is burnt out, shrink is writing to my school for a deferment as well. letter will come to me,a nd i have until fri to pay my part of the fees. got a nasty letter, $ 485.00, 434.00 for the sleep study, $ 75.00 for the bed (not refundeable) then have to pay for the consultants review of around $ 180.00. i owe the chemist $ 75 bucks, and like everyone else my regular bills!!!!!!!!!!! rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
some people owe me money, and i better get some back soon!!!!!!!!! ok talk soon. been a long day.
thx for listening. with healing compassion to myself. jamie :-(

thx am trying. just so burnt out. life sux at the momnent.

Jamie, I hope by the time that you re4ad this dhat you are feeling better.

Keep us posted.

Hugs, Karen

My typing leaves a lot to be desired this morning I see. I can't believe I made so many mistakes in such a short post.

Jamie, I really hope that you feel better soon. You have been down for about a week or more now. It sounds like the shrink didn't help much and I hate to see you feeling this way. Do take care, get rest. Sort things out and write them down. See if that helps any.

Healing compasion to you.

Hugs, Karen

You aren't useless Jamie, you are just going through a hard time. Look at all the things that you are going through. School, shrinks, daily routine, quiitting smoking (which is a huge success for you). It is overwhelming to say the least. ONe day at a time my friend.

Take care,

Hugs, Karen

thx my dear friends

thx ig.

Hey Jamie, I can't sleep either.

I hate to see that you have felt so badly. I hope that you find some relief, and still aren't smoking. I have never smoked, but know people who quit. They feel so much better, but it took time. Know that there are people who are here for you, and try and think positively.


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