Depressed/Flashbacks

Hi my name is Drew and I am 17 years old. I have been dealing with a mental illness for about 3 years and it's been to it's point where it has been top and it's been so hard to go through... I have been living in my house for about 17 years and I finally moved out I got tired of my parents constantly abusing me... They would yell and scream at me every freaking day and 2 or 3 times a week they would physically abuse me or emotionally abuse me when they are pissed off at someone or nothing at all... Also In April I was going out with a guy that I thought cared about me but instead physically and emotionally abused me and had sexually assaulted me... I'm scarred at the both of them because I live in the same town as them and they are really close to were I live and one of them goes to my school and I don't want to go to another school because that is not fair to me because of the idiot that did that too me. I've been to my lowest points every in the last few months I've been in the mental hospital off and on for about 5 months and I'm at another program that I am in there for 4 months and I hate it... I'be been down in the dumps for the most of the months and I have been doing harmful things to myself that are really risky to my life and I'm scared I might do something that I regret. But i get very emotional in some of the situations that i am in like having a flashback about it and having to talk about it to my social worker I get so emotional that I do something harmful to my body... I'm a complete mess and I don't know what to do?? I did move out of my house and now living with my aunt but it feels like my fault for the reason why they were abusing me and why he sexually assaulted me.....

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You'll be in my prayers
Maggie

Hon, it is never your fault that you are abused. Apart of your parents is broken, and it needs to be fixed. Without help from doctors they can't fix the broken part inside of them. It is never your fault. You are loved. You are cared for. All of us love you as a friend and care about you. We want to see you get the help you need too, and you to keep in touch with us. Go to your school councelor. Tell them about the abuse, even in details. Tell them you are afraid of your parents coming after you again. They will help you. There is laws even that can make your parents stay away from you or they go to jail. You really need help. Please talk to your councelor, and let us know what happens. We are all here for you. And you are not stupid, you never are. No one is in my books. We are all unique, everyone of us. HUGGGSSS you keep in touch You can email me anytime you want

I told my aunt and my nan what was going on and that and they are here for me now and know what is going on... I am getting new medication and that for my flashbacks and my mood I'm getting a new mood stabilizer to keep my mood from going to really low to high and then to low... I am talking to my social worker and she is helping me through this and I will be talking to her tomorrow..
Drew :)