still extremely depressed

Jamie:  is there anyway you could talk to a lawyer before you go?  If not, definately take someone that can advocate for you if you need help. I would be really nervous too. 

But you are strong and will find a way to get through this.  Just keep talking to us too.

cass

coronial court web site recommends i have a lawyer...........legal aid, free are full to the brim, i will make some inquiries monday. am still freaking. this goes for 4 days. i don't know if i can handle it. am still freaking out. i will be interviewed by either a police officer, court lawyer or lawyer in general. freaking big time!!!!! help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

love, jamie

yeah, will do. thank you very much my friend, jamie

Oh jamie you must be freaking out !!! What craziness!! I hope legal aid can help you out...I know how anxious you must be so stay on top of your meds and food, altho I know you will have a hard time sleeping

in my prayers
Maggie

thx buddies. yep sleep is the issue, hence staying up late to force my brain to shut down!!!!!!!!!!!

cheers guys. jamie

luv ya too!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i don't know if i should be on this earth any longer?
i don't think, that's the problem i can't think. my heart has a
massive void, and the void is me. yep this screwed up peice of
**** that is me. i am beyond sad. beyond depressed. beyond
anxious and freaking, i am at a loss to comprehend, geez i am
a mess. life is meant to be for the living, i aint doin' that!!!!
i am a mistake, a blight on the medical world, my family
and myself. just well................
i hate myself, the world and some of the stupid idiots in it.
but i love, have compassion and empathy too. my past, this
and everything in between has broken me. i am a broken man.
no good for anything, nothing, nobody.
i wish i could cry, to blunt of an affect to do even that.

sorry, jamie. :(

Jamie,

I am sorrry you are feeling so down. I hope things get better for you and soon. Know that all of us here care about you and want to see you feel better.

Keep posting. It helps.

Hugs, Karen

Jamie,

Big Sister Kitt to the rescue - I hope  ! ! When your thoughts start to run away on you -  picuture a giant red stop sign !  Stop the stinkin thinkin and remind yourself it is just your mind playing tricks on you.

You are a good, kind, generous and loving person and don't you ever let go of knowing that. Everyone here in the forum agrees on how great you are and we cannot all be wrong !

Remember scars make us stronger for life !  You have more then your fair share of scars and it proves that you can make it through this next challenge.

A higher power has brought us together here in this forum so you will never be alone.

Love and hugs,

Kitt

Jamie,

Hope that you are feeling better. Know that I am thinking about you.

Hugs, Karen

ok guys. been sleeping today. having some lunch, am trying to eat as my sugars are a mess.

love yas. jamie

cheers, cass. jamie

thx mate. just awoke from an hours rest. keeping strong. you
guys are amazing and are lifting my spirits. thank you maggie,
thank you all. jamie