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Posted 7/10/2012 9:52 PM (GMT 0)
i am 2 years into a major clinical depression and was beginning to do better. That progress is all gone and i am back to the pit again. I am so tired of only bad days. I do not want to kill myself, but I don't want to wake up every day to misery. My Psychaitrist and psychologist tell me this is temporary. I do not believe them. I had 4 major stresses happen at one time in May and since then I can not tolerate even the smallest thing going wrong. Even if everything is fine ,it doesn't feel fine. It feels like the worst day of my life every day. The docs both say that this is a valley that I will come out of in time. They want me to continue a little higher dose of antidepressant and take Xanax when I feel to anxious. Does anybody relate and have come out on the other side better.
Posted 7/10/2012 10:03 PM (GMT 0)
I did.

What kind of antidepressant do you take? I take pristiq, abilify and xanax. My depression is said to be in remission right now. Keep in mind that this is temporary. The psychiatrist and psychologist probably have a good idea what they are doing with your recovery. Trust them. If you don't start feeling better in say a month, then talk to them about a new approach. But give the med increase time to work.

It sounds like you are easily irritated and probably a little nervous. You have to learn not to sweat the small stuff as they say. Can you learn to live in the moment? It really helps. Those smaller things don't bother us so much when we take life one day at a time. IT takes practice, but it can be done. So try to relax. Take a deep breath. Focus on only the now. You can do it... Like I say, it takes practice, but can be mastered. Learn to meditate. That helps a lot too.

Hugs, Karen
Posted 7/11/2012 1:11 AM (GMT 0)
I have been on every combination available. Finally Wellbutrin and adderall worked beautifully. I was beginning to feel myself again, until May. I have a chronic serious physical illness and I was in the hospital. My mom became suddenly violent and had to be sent from her assisted living to a mental hospital. She died a week later. They let me out of the hospital to go to the funeral. I was trying to arrange everything and it was just too much to bear. Then my adult daughter who is bipolar decided to try Neurostar treatments, since everything else had failed to give her relief. She won't return my phone messages or emails. She says I trigger her but won't tell how so I could try to do better. Everyone else in the family in an effort to protect me won't tell me how she is. I can't make them understand that not knowing is so much worse than anything they might tell me. Everything in my life seems hopeless and I am so sad. The only way I get thru the days is Xanax. I take as little as possible ,I worry about being addicted. How can I expect anything to ever get better,
Posted 7/11/2012 12:01 PM (GMT 0)
I am so sorry to hear about your mom. I bet that was hard on you. And I am sorry that your daughter says you trigger her. Maybe stay away from her for a little while. Until you learn what triggers her about you. I have been cutting back on my xanax. My psychologist wants me to try to get off of it. I am doing okay, but still taking some. There is anti anxiety medication in my pristiq I guess. So hopefully that will help me.

I hope that things start to get better soon. Keep posting, it helps.

Hugs, Karen
Posted 7/12/2012 5:54 PM (GMT 0)
Hang in there. I know the feeling of one thing happening after another. I also have a person who triggers my depression. Don't forget to love YOU,. I have been working on this for twenty years, your going to have ups and downs.

Keep posting

depression, anxiety ,bipolar
Posted 7/13/2012 1:52 AM (GMT 0)
Please help me understand what about this person, who loves you and who you love, triggers you. My daughter and I have always been so close, I can't understand how I trigger her and she won't tell me. It is being too worried about her and maybe she is being protective to me. Or is it just her interpretation because of her depression, of the things I do or say. We have never fought about anything and she has been a wonderful child and adult. I would like to help but I don't know how.
Posted 7/13/2012 11:06 AM (GMT 0)
Maybe give her some space. It sounds like that is what she wants. If you are triggering her, try to stay away for awhile until she feels better. You may never know just what triggers her about you. So try to forget that and just give her the space she needs. That will save the relationship.

Hugs, Karen
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