Really depressed and need to vent.

Hey,

I have a squint in my eye that causes physical and mental discomfort, Anxiety, Depression, Chronic Pain that is undiagnosed causing mental discomfort as well as physical, I am 6 foot 4 roughly if not a bit taller and I am skinny as hell and my relationship with my Mum is not healthy.

I guess this is mainly about my relationship with my Mum. I get REALLY irritable from the Pain that I have and Anxiety. I mean if the smallest little thing goes wrong I practically get raging within a heartbeat and can't control it a lot of the time. I care mostly about my Mum in this case, forget how I feel. She goes through enough and doesn't need to come home to ME. I want to stop being so moody with her all the time :(. It really gets to me, like I can be sitting here feeling this way and I will go downstairs to get something to eat or drink and she will say something and I'll just snap, I want to step outside myself and give myself a royal slap!

Had to vent this, but is there any techniques you know of to staying calm? I am usually quite a placid guy, been described as having a heart of gold and couldn't hurt a fly etc. Which I am more than happy with - I am not the sort to want confrontations so why am I starting them? I know it's mostly down to my chronic pain.

Like she just came in my room to say goodnight, I didn't snap or anything but it has definitely had an affect on life at home. I need out of this ****ing bundle of crap that I constantly have to just deal with on a daily basis!

So irritable it is really hard to keep sitting still.
Paul

definately have a chat with your dr.

i am in therapy and on medication and it really helps.

with healing compassion,

jamie

Talk to a psychiatrist. I might help if you attend anger management classes. You can also try psychotherapy. I did for my anxiety and I learned how to think positive and cope with negative feelings. Risperadol is a good drug to help stabilize mood swings.