So I'm wondering lately, this happiness I seek, what does if feel like? or maybe I should ask what do I want it to feel like?
Several months ago I was not depressed, but was I happy? I'm not so sure. Right now I suppose I would gladly settle for feeling that way again. But as I endure this depression I realize, I can dream even bigger - I can use this time to work on some things I want to change about myself and carry these changes forward to when I feel complete again.
Most of the things I would change are things that I believe also contributed to my condition. I will try to be less concerned about what other people think of me. I will re-consider what I really value in life, instead of seeking things like wealth, approval and sexual gratifaction, I will spend more energy helping and loving other people. I will learn to take life as it comes, count my blessings more often, let go of the past, focus on the present and not be as concerned about the future.
I like the idea that we can not only be happy but also choose the form of the happiness!