Is there no escaping it??

I understand. For a lot of us depression will always be there. It's about learning healthier coping skills. I have been there with the ups and downs. The days where I just don't know where the strength to continue will come from.
You said you have a child, I'm a mom. My kids have been my lighthouse in my worst storms. I hold onto the hope of giving them the best of me because they deserve that. I'm sure you feel the same about your child.
I'm in therapy and that may be a great place for you. It really helps me get my thoughts in order. I also have journaled my thoughts. It helps to get those thoughts out. Just know you have support here.

Mrs Unique

You have received some wonderful advice and I hope that you follow through on some of it.

I would like to share some links with you that may also help. At the the top of the depression thread there are more resources for you to pursue.

http://www.dbtselfhelp.com/html/dbt_skills__defined_.html

http://www.dbtmind.com/

www.mindful.org

Plus there are more at the top of the Depression thread under Resources.

Stay Strong.
Peace
Trina

I'm not in therapy right now, I've been to a few over the years. The last one was the best she was giving things to read on positive thinking and coping skills. Looking back she was probably better than the place I was in for 10 day. They was suppose to help me with my depression & take me off the clonazepam. I was giving them by my Doctor & was taking them has i was told....I was not abusing them. They end up screwing with all my meds, even the my fibro.med. that I was finely gottting help for. They had me so messed up I don't remember the first few days& most of the others are a blur, too. I come out of that place taking more meds. then I went in....Anyway the last therapist is 45 mins. away. I can't afford to go. I already take up to much money away from the house hold.

A journal would be great if didn't have a spelling problem & with the fibro fog it's a nightmare. It kind of adds to the depression.:( if you can imaging where I'm coming from. I seen a post on here where someone used there ipod, I like that& it would help with spelling. It still would be a struggle, like this is now. I have a mobile where it spells what I say...IT HAS MADE MY LIFE EASIER...but its still a pain. I don't advertise this, you get good at hiding your learning disabilities, because of the way people see you has stupid. I've gotten better at spelling with age. My reading is at college level, now


Angelic,
Like your children, my son has been my inspiration & my light. I got my GED because I wanted to be a good role model. I have done everything I can think of to help him now &when he was littler ..in hopes he won't have the same learning problems. He is 10 & is starting to not want me around. Helping him with homework is a nightmare. In more ways than one. I'm tired,

Hope y'all have good day!

My son is near your son's age. I wouldn't take it personally that he is learning to establish his independence. It's good and it means he is learning from you how to grow up. Children can be that blessing needed to anchor us in our lives and it sounds like your son did that for you. Someday he will really appreciate all that you did for him, but being 10 is about having lots friends of fun.
Every step you take for your depression is ultimately for your son. You becoming happier and more capable of coping not only let's him have a not depressed mom but a role model on how to handle stress.