New to the site.

Just a brief bio - I suffer from PTSD, Depression & Anxiety. I hardly ever leave my home and I have such hig anxiety that I can't answer my door or the phone. I spend most of my time in a dark room and sleeping. I was directed here by my daughter and so here i am giving this a try.

I also never answer my door or phone. I figure if its anyone important they will leave a message. The idea of talking to someone I don't want to freaks me out. Which is funny, as I am able talk to strangers on the phone all day at work without anxiety.

Anxiety is the worst. I don't know how many times I have had to just get up from somewhere and go home. I have space issues and it freaks me out to have people too close so I avoid things like parties and concerts.

I am glad that you posted DeadIMVU. I have found that letting it out here is a safe place. No one will ever ridicule your feelings or make you feel like you don't matter, which is what I always fear when sharing myself with others. I find that this is a really safe place to vent, to share and to find some sort of peace.

There are others here with more experience than myself who have great advice. I would suggest you listen to them as they seem to be really right on about things.

Are you seeking any medical treatment for your issues? I know it can be frustrating, but sometimes through trial and error you can find something that helps.

Hang on my friend. We are here for you.

Jennifer

Hi DeadIMVU,

Just saying hi and welcome to the forum

Sorry to hear about your sister and brother. I hope you doing okay?
This month will soon pass and things should improve for you. Maybe you can try doing things you liked to distract your feelings? I'm glad your daughter directed you here as it is a very nice, friendly and supportive place.

I hope you start to feel better soon and keep us updated on how you're feeling.

Take Care

UA

Hi there DeadIMVU,

February is such a hard month, luckily it is the shortest. It will be over soon and things are going to get better for you.

There are a few mental health facilities that will work with you to get help. They work on a sliding scale and charge you according to your income.

Do you live with family right now to help you out? I am curious how you survive with no job. I hope you have somewhere to stay that is safe.

Keep posting and know we all care. Keep looking for work. I highly suggest counseling. So do try,

Here is a link that might help you. Copy and paste it into your browser.

http://moodgym.anu.edu.au/welcome

I have gotten good reports on moodgym as for helping with depression and it is free.

Hugs, Karen

Hi there-

There is always hope. I know how you feel though. I was at that "no hope" place not too long ago. My family didn't understand the level of my depression and how it affected my life daily.

The people here are so nice and caring and they understand what I am feeling and doing. Right now, I get up and go to work and the rest of the time I am in bed and I just want to be left alone. I am not hopeless like I was but I feel myself slipping.....

February is almost over. You need to have a "I survived February" Party for yourself. Take a whole day and do things that are just for YOU!!!!!! Whether is it reading a book at a park, baking a cake, getting your nails done, or dancing around to music you love, celebrate that you did survive this month.

I will keep you in my prayers and thoughts. Please know that we all care!

Michele

Been sitting here reading the obituaries ..I am not being morbid...It is interesting how lovingly the people are described..I know that there are financial constraints in regards to length but some are so well thought out without being "wordy"..I think that getting a glimpse into a person's life is a privilege and appreciate a well written tribute..Got me thinking about mine.. It will probably say..She was here , I think?

I think staying on the positive side of hope is a good idea. Have looked for Suidical Anynamous groups or Depression support groups in your areas? Meeting with other people who know how you feel does help. It is just hard in the beginning getting comfy with the group.

Please keep posting here, you will feel better for that!

Peace
Trina

Thanks JB, Hello Angelic, It is so hard for me to go any where I will dread it for days even making myself sick over it and then yes in the end I will call off or just not go. I don't know when this all started for me but I do know it had just gotten worse over time. I hope you are able to get it nipped in the bud before it gets much worse, and it will get worse. I know for me I can't even have people over to my own home , if some one knocks on my door I hade in my closet with a blanket over me and will stay there for hours some time just to afraid to come out. my kids always text me when they are in the driveway so i know it is them and to open the door. It sucks I don't want to be like this but seems like i have no control .

DeadIMVU