I sooooooo wish I could put into words how I feel (and felt last week).
Things that point me in the direction of depression. I'm still think I'm somewhat depressed. I don't find joy in things I should. Lack of interest. Feeling down (although I'm happy to have my mind somewhat back). I'm no longer wishing / praying I was dead (yea it was that bad). I still feel like a failure. Inability to concentrate.
Things that point me in the direction of firomyalgia. The PAIN and FATIGUE. Lack of good sleep; even when I get in the hours I wake unrested.
I don't feel like I was even me. I still feel a bit disconnected mind from body, but I was so far from reality. I shouldn't have been driving. I shouldn't have been left alone or with my son. I don't ever want to be in that place again.