Posted 5/24/2014 2:59 AM (GMT 0)
The woman I love, and want to marry, left me because I was suffocating and codependent, due to depression and anxiety issues I was afraid to deal with as it involved a major life change and upset to my mom and dad, to the point I thought and truly believed that my dad would never speak to me again.
She broke up with me about 3 weeks ago. That night I came clean to mom and told her about the depression, suicidal thoughts, the anxiety, the panic attacks, the drug use to self-medicate.
Mom and dad still speak to me and love me.
But the girl I love won't talk to me. She "needs space" I haven't spoken to her for 12 days now, in any capacity (she doesn't even like my fb statuses, though I'm pretty sure she still gets my notifications because she keeps becoming active like right after I post something)
I'm getting help, on an anti-depressant (for about two and a half to three weeks) and just started an anti-anxiety. But I really want her back. I know I have to do other things too, so I don't become codependent again, but I'm finding it very hard to progress because I'm worried she's moving on or screwing someone else or thinks something that's incorrect- like that it was her fault.
She said that she loves me and will always love me and that she misses me.
But I just don't get how she doesn't break down and at least text me or something?
If she loves me that much...?
PS: Buspar 7.5 2x day, Pristiq 50mg 1x day.