Not really sure how to feel

There's nothing at all about depression that relates to "crazy"!

And .... if you don't start the anti-depressants, you'll never know whether or not there are side effects. SE's are not universal. They vary by the person. You'll also keep being in a depressed state without trying the anti-depressants.

If you're already "talking thru" anxiety with a therapist, why would it be more difficult to also talk about depression?

Without trying both of the above, you'll just keep wondering ... and nothing is going to be solved or get better .... so why not try both!

R & G

 

Hello,

Sorry you're having a rough time, as others have suggested, please start your meds, don't think you're crazy because you're not! Depression can happen for different reasons.

I do understand the whole stigma thing though very well, when I was in my late teens I started with terrible depression, no reason really, would just happen, turns out I have a chemical imbalance but didn't find that out until years later as I never went to a Dr or told anyone, just suffered silently by myself trying to act as though nothing was wrong for fear of being labelled "nuts". Felt as though I'd die on the spot if anyone found out.

Please don't be embarrassed/ashamed of talking to a therapist about depression, nothing to be ashamed of and they don't judge you at all, a good therapist can really help you and that's what you need so you can feel better again. You want to feel better and they want you to feel better :)

Also, unless you tell anyone what's going on, therapy, anti-depressant etc..they won't know. I am extremely private and only a few people know about my illness, it's just not something I want to tell everyone about.

Start your meds, try not to be anxious about any side effects, just keep in contact with your Dr.

The isolation you talk about is very common, you're not crazy, hope you start to feel better and it's always good to come on here to "talk" as people understand what you're going through.

Big hugs coming your way...

all has been said what i would have. but i offer you our support here on the forum. we care. healing thoughts i send.

Well, it's been about 3 wks since my initial post & I'm on meds daily. Still not totally sure if I think they work, my moods are totally up & down which I'm hoping will eventually stabilize. Truthfully, though I'm trying to be optimistic, I don't think this medication is going to work. I'm trying SO hard to hang on to hope and to convince myself that its gonna get better but that's not easy right now.